a lexicographical blender of madness

photos!

2006-09-15T22:43:00.000-06:00

Today my family and I went and took portraits. It was honestly, an absolute blast from start to finish. We took all these pictures and the photographer made us say all this goofy crap and we laughed. Then we got to see them all and choose our favorites. Unfortunately, we did not choose the ones I loved the most. This maybe because how much I laughed was in direct proportion to how screwed up my smile was. I have this tendency to show my gums when I smile, maybe a leftover of having braces and headgear and blablabla. To compound this, I also smile more on side of my face. The result is you get to see all my gums and it looks like I have a lazy eye when I'm laughing/smiling a lot. So in basically every picture we took, my smile looked ridiculous to some extent. We wound up retaking some with me not smiling so much. How goofy is that?

But the best part is we get a full set of proofs. If I can get my hands on them, I will share with you my best of most terrible smiles. I know at least one person out there who can appreciate the worst of pictures and seriously consider them the greatest.

tidbits of boredom

2006-09-15T12:41:00.000-06:00

The less people comment on my blog, the more I begin to feel like it is my personal journal which is safe from all eyes. Or at least the eyes of anyone who cares. It's just me and my laptop, which begrudgingly turns on only after I bribe it with the prospect of maybe only using it for another year. Assuming it doesn't start a fire in my room or anything.

I'm reading chapters from my book on communication, and I came across something that's super relevant to me - mind reading and perception checking.

Mind reading is when you assume you understand what another person is thinking and feeling. Say my roommate starts acting cranky. My thought process might go like this: um.. Is he upset because I want a ride somewhere? Is it because of all this traffic? Maybe I'm doing something to annoy him and I just don't know. Maybe I should just sit here and shrink into this car seat until we get home.

The problem is that I'm never doing more than just guessing. I impose my perspectives on him instead of figuring out what's really going on.

The solution to this, simple as it sounds, is perception checking. By running my guesses by him and finding out what he has to say, a lot of confusion and misunderstanding can be avoided. The main thing to remember is that when going through this process, I have to come off as tentative instead of being dogmatic or accusatory. It starts with me stating an observation; 'you seem cranky.' Then I can see if he agrees; 'Do you feel cranky right now?' Then I can try and work out what's up; 'Is there a reason why? Maybe this crazy traffic or maybe you're tired?' The hard part is trying to keep him from having to be defensive. Then I get to hear what I want; 'Well I was up at 6:30am and I just want to get home and relax already.' And that's it.

The thing is, everyone loves to mind read but when it comes to checking perceptions, we all get scared. We're afraid to be wrong and we don't want to seem crazy for even noticing what we do sometimes. Also, it's real hard to bring up observations without them coming off as accusations. The coolest part about this is it is something that I've learned to do on my own, just recently, but before I read it in this book. Now I feel like a totally awesome communicator.

And that means maybe I can get married and not go insane because me and ant are both fans of perception checking. I never feel afraid to point out when he's spacey or not listening or sleepy.

For a second here, I thought this topic would be boring my audience... Then I remembered-- I don't have one! /but let's just check. Is this boring you, person out there who has nothing better to do than read this?

Let me recommend something slightly more interesting. The following sentence is grammatically correct:
Buffalo buffalo Buffalo buffalo buffalo buffalo Buffalo buffalo

How awesome is that? Does anyone get it? I can post the explanation if anyone so desires.

ick

2006-09-14T22:15:00.000-06:00

I'm back in Littleton now, taking advantage of how close my family lives to me. Why? Because I'm sickly like the old lady on the bus who coughs all over everyone. But let's back up

Two nights ago, my throat started hurting and I coughed all over. I felt completely unmotivated and did absolutely no homework. Preston suggested that it was because I haven't been smoking lately. Something about my lungs finally getting a chance to get rid of all the crap in them, and that being why I'm all coughy.

The next day, my throat was swole but I was ok otherwise. Supertired but I figured that was a result of lack of sleep. Around 1530, I crashed out , only to wake up a couple hours later in a ball of cold sweat. Blaming it on my usage of a comforter when it's 80 degrees out, I went back to sleep again. Around 1830, I called home and told my parents and they said maybe they'd come fetch me. After my dearest of roomies brought home a thermometer and it told me I was at 101, my mom agreed that coming home was the best for all.

This way, none of my other roommates would get sick, and since my family is super paranoid about ze germies, they wouldn't either. And here I am, lounging about, letting them keep me quarantined.

"More gatorade?"

"Yes please, mama. Could you bring it to me since I'm not allowed to open the fridge?"

If I even look at the food, it'll all have my icky virus. No cleaning for me, don't touch anything. Just sit in your room and sleep sleep sleep. I want to say I hate this. (It'd be a lie.)

It'll suck when I get sick in Guam and can't go home and be taken care of. (does that count as ending a sentence with a preposition?)

Who will make me ramen when my head is filled with mash potatoes and my muscles aren't working? What if my Ant is out to sea? GASP! Will I finally learn how to take care of myself?

One way to find out, right? Right. And now, more NyQuil (Big N little y Big FUCKING Q!) and off to beddy with me.

exciting and different information

2006-09-13T00:35:00.000-06:00

After having not posted for months on end, it's suddenly harder than I thought to get back into it. I'm sitting here all night. The internet is here and I have free ability to get to this site. But I don't. It's on the list of things that I've been avoiding doing, along with my Japanese homework, my modern lit reading and laundry and cutting up celery into snacky bits for class.

But what I'm really, truly excited about is my latest acquisition: a longboard!
here is what the public has to say (most of these are actual responses from messengers)

joe: no, I won't try it

sarah: I am now in fearful awe of your new activity

sarah: that is total sweet nut though

ben: don't break anything

ben: I have no friends with long boards that haven't seriously injured themselves

preston: damnit, now I'll have to get a board so I can ride with you

max: now you can say you know how to ride, without it being a double entendre

dad: must be nice to live the life of riley (read: I want one damnit!)

My first night out, Preston and I got kicked out of a parking garage. I now understand the boarder's plight of looking for cool places to ride. Especially those boarders who have minimal experience and prefer to ride on smooth, new concrete.

anyway.

I thought I'd been on top of my graduation crap. Kept up on which classes I needed to take, how to get credit for major and core requirements at once, blah blah blah. I forgot that I still need 120 total. So imagine my surprise at my advisement appt when this lady is all, well your core is done, and you only need two more classes for your major,... BUT you need 16 hours to reach 120. '16!' I wanted to scream. I've never taken more than 14 in my life, and that was hard enough. I was entirely looking forward to having an easy spring semester so I could spend more time doing weddingy/moving to guam related stuff.

Here are my options, neither of which seems to be any better.
1) take Japanese 4210 for credit, then take 13 credits in the spring
2) make this semester easy, then take a crapload of easy classes in the spring, like bongos and dance and linguistics practicums.

I hate how stressed out I'm getting over this. But man the end of the tunnel is close and that's nice.

That's a nice sequeway into the only other thing I think about. Anthony left Guam yesterday, on that goddamned submarine. A few days ago he told me it'd be about three weeks. As it turns out, it'll be two months. For reference, the longest he's been out in one go is about 3 weeks. So this sucks bad for all parties involved, but theoretically, I'll be able to email him. He probably won't be able to write me back much and I'll have no idea whether he even gets half of my emails, but it's better than nothing. And the silver lining to this cloud? He finishes deployment a month earlier, getting back to Honolulu in November instead of December. I probably still won't see him til January but at least we can talk a whole lot more, right?

I'm tired. But there are comics on my door and this room is starting to feel more and more like mine.

I'd also like to say that spiral bound graph paper is the only way to take notes for classes.

wow long time

2006-08-29T14:51:00.000-06:00

I haven't been here in so long. Once I left my laptop charger in Omaha, my online presence dropped to nothing. Email and accounts were my only concern and I left my blog for dead. Somehow I don't really like posting anywhere but my own laptop. It's unreasonable but I'm allowed such silly things.

School is up and running again and I have much excitement for most of my classes. Morphology, the process of figuring out the smallest units of meaning, is an area of linguistics that I enjoy almost as much as phonetics. Combine this with syntax, the grammatical arrangement of words in sentences, and you've got one hell of a class. It'll keep me busy for sure. Morphemes (smallest unit of meaning) can be a word or even less. For example, raspberry seems like a compound, but rasp doesn't represent the kind of berry it is. The entire word 'raspberry' is a morpheme. We are going to work through this whole process for data sets from languages I've never heard of. If anyone recalls the random dead and moribund languages on my arty box, some of them are in the booklet.

Syntax talks about why

colorless green dreams sleep furiously

is a grammatical sentence, which provides proof that language isn't a list of words and sentences in your mind that you pull out, but instead an abstract set of rules which you apply to an abstract lexicon of morphemes.

IS ANYONE STILL AWAKE?!

I know, I know; boring as shit. I can't control what I'm fascinated by. I want to go to sleep now but I have class. 'Mountain People and Places' for upper division writing. Ugh.

2006-07-16T20:44:00.000-06:00

A couple months ago, my dad told me his nephew was moving in permanently to the house, I was annoyed. I've fought a lot with feeling like I've been replaced by his philipina wife's daughter, so hearing that now he's got another one really bothered me.

I met this kid the night I got here, and it hasn't bothered me since. He's 9 years old and reminds me very much of my little brother. I feel like a celebrity, fielding millions of questions a day about the most innane and unimportant things. "Do you take a shower today?" (his english still needs work.) "Will you change your clothes?" "Where is your internet?" "What can I call you?" (I told him to call me frederick, because I liked his name so much. I've also been teaching him all the kid jokes, like that one about something on your shirt, then slapping you. It's good stuff, I don't get tired of it. And he's got the biggest eyes and ears. The better to call him monkey-boy with.

The best part is he calls my dad 'Uncle Rob' but when he really gets to talkin, it shortens to 'unklob' and when dad doesn't respond, it becomes a verbal barrage and I crack up every time. He really brightens up the house with his youthful unawareness and naivety. I can't get over how much fun it is to mess with him.

In related news, my stepsister's attitude is finally calming down. (This may be related to the 'pull a knife on dad' incident.) Last night, we went out to a club and tomorrow we're going shopping. We stay up late talking and drinking and suddenly she's not so bad. Life parallels bring the most opposite of people together, it turns out.

In conclusion, Nebraska's 50% humidity and 104 degree weather is tolerable in the right company.

update

2006-07-13T22:47:00.000-06:00

WHOOO new posts! To what do I owe this occasion? I'm down in Littleton, basically waiting for my parents to drive me to Omaha, NE so I can hang out with my dad for a bit. So much has been going on, it's silly.

For starters, the house bit is in motion. The lease is signed, the moving has begun. The last step is finding a 5th roommate, which we are attempting with a craig's list ad. Blogetta says she mostly avoids that site for whatever reason. I don't actually understand it but it's cool. By August 1st, I will be living in a different house that will be bustling with people and I have no idea what'll happen. It'll be like watching my own real world happen. Except if I'm miserable, I can't really leave or whatever.

Also, no more summer classes for me! WHOO HOO that's awesome. I can spend my sweltering July days packing with intermittent dives into the pool. Much better than going to class, I'd say.

In other news, my navy baby will be back (in Hawai'i) in 5 months. 1/6th down, hell yeah. I'd be more excited if I even knew where he was. Which I don't. Haven't heard anything from him in almost 3 weeks. I send shit, it gets sent to the boat, but I get no replies. and I don't know what that means. Mostly I try not to worry about it.

well, my laundry calls and I must answer if I want to sleep at all tonight. ja ne, minnasan~

YARDIBLARRR!!!

2006-06-23T12:25:00.000-06:00

my class is 60% over. but my real cause for celebration...

Anthony's in japan! yay! and he's gonna meet up w/my most awesome　アニキ！that makes me really happy. i'd been kind of worried that my brother was holding against me the fact that he only found out about my little engagement thing because of my parents. i never actually told him. should i even be worried about that? i'm such a paranoid person sometimes. anyway the point is i get to talk to anthony and he can call me for free, albeit only at ungodly hours of the morning. i'm so happy to talk to him though, so i make it work. i get so silly and lovey dovey mushy with him. this fuels my daydreams of a year from nowish. which helps me forget that i'm still 180 days out.

moving right along

i had so much fun going out w/crystal and sarah and various other friendlies. at first they wouldn't let me in w/my temporary license and i was annoyed and tired. but, i went home, got my passport and i was golden. i paid for no drinks, which is cause to be proud. congratulations for sarah for escaping with her $20 as well. i thank those who funded my inebriation through long beaches and redbull/vodkas. i love dancing while holding drinks. i love when my friends get all sexy hot for bars. the hotter your friends look, the hotter you look. unless you wear dingy old clothes that are more suitable for park picnics maybe. but whatever, i still can dance and have a blast.

sarr says that wherever crystal goes, she is surrounded by a cloud of fun. ナルホド　だね！
crystal is going to rome in 5 hours! i hope the morning wasn't too rough on her.

that about wraps up my latest of newsy news.

beastie gear is gonna be the in thing this summer, yaal jus wait and see.

aced my astronomy test, sweet!

2006-06-16T12:31:00.000-06:00

so... who wants to go on a weekend road trip to holyoke, colorado to visit a very cool person? it's about 4 hours out, but it'd totally be worth it for the homecooked breakfast and such*!

* pronounced sa.tch' with a glottoral stop between the u and the t. hehe

yay for summer classes

2006-06-13T12:45:00.000-06:00

I love astronomy! But what I love even more is that over a week into the class, when things should be getting difficult, it's getting easier. Today we learned all about light. I wrote an entire paper about particle wave duality last year, and I helped ssaarrRR put up an entire art show (twice) about absorption and emission lines in spectra. I'm not actually sure how to phrase it, but everyone reading this knows what I'm talking about. I had to hold my tongue through most of class because everyone else was having such a hard time with it all. That makes me feel smart. And by smart, I mean I spend a lot of time learning things from astronomy inclined friends I have.

Also, the pool is open at my complex! Oh the joys of water being kept in large warm quantities for my splashing pleasures. And of new swim suits which I can wear while being splashy and silly. And of trying to make rafts with shoe parts. I'm looking forward to another season of rescuing bugs that appear dead but aren't really.

Sunday, a friend and I found a dragon fly that we took for dead but rescued so we could keep it as an artifact. After letting it dry in the sun though, we noticed that it was indeed breathing and clinging to the leaves we carried it on. Unfortunately before anyone else got to see it, it took off in the wind. Very, very cool though. I've never seen a real dragonfly so close and alive before.

In other news, my anchor clanker is out to sea as of yesterday for 6 months. I have a handy dandy widget that tells me how long till he gets back. hopefully, it won't take long. It's all downnhill after this, and the next thing i know, ill be married and all that. Crazy huh! I'm still not quite over it...

welcome back, to a dearest friend of friends, Preston! Although he's not actually here in the b town yet. But soon enough, hopefully.

And house news is continuing to unfold. Looks like I'll be moving in a month or so, and I'll be living by myself in this 5 bedroom house for a couple weeks. Saweet! Yaal don't know how excited I am about this coming year.

30 days from now, I'll be in a new, freakin cool house
182 days from now, my baby gets back
250~ days from now, you'll all be getting fanciful invitations from me
330~ days from now, I'll be graduating
354 days from now, I'll be gettin' hitched
370 days from now, I'll be in guam!

but since when did I start planning things so far in advance....

finaaalllyy

2006-06-04T22:48:00.000-06:00

so the internet at my apt has yet to be resolved although i did call and complain which turned into the tech guy trying to keep me on the phone for whatever reason. this included sharing info about other apt renters, which i'm pretty sure is illegal. but whatever. i'm chilling at my friend of friend's apt and we're phone conferencing w/don who just got a job in japan. congratulations!

let's see.. news worht metioning.... i picked a date for wedding of joy - june 2, 2007! save the date yaal!

also, my dearest anchor clanker just got back in town which is like +10 hp for me until he leaves again in a week. for six months. damnit. but i guess i should think about how i won't have to do it ever again and how it'll be worth it, right. right? RIGHT?? i need support here. i'm not as strong as everyone (including me) thinks i am.

in other news, jobby type hobbies are hard to acquire when you're looking for a job that pays more than $9 for something that doesn't suck. i got spoiled by those big gold buses. did i mention i got fired? cuz i did. on my 21st birthday. old news though so let us not talk about such things.

sorry nothing exciting here like blogo's pool keg stands. but let's start working on elitches adventures.

this week anyone? next week? keep your specs peeled for coke cans w/ads for cheap admissions. and laser tag? let me know what yaal wanna do cuz i miss the big social events.

but since my semester break is over (it was this weekend, i had a final friday), i gotta crash. next semester starts tomorrow bright and early. yay for astronomy!

2006-05-10T20:52:00.000-06:00

so i still cant get into blogger when i'm at my apt. which is shit. absolute crap. but i'm tired of that place anyway. moreso i'm tired of the new management charging me $5 for a new mail key and never being around when i want to give them money. and the way they turn around and stick shit on my door about how i need to pay them. blargh. so i'll move into my friend's place in june, and everyone else will move in in july hopefuly. august. so good news yay.

moving right along, folks--i got fired. yup the best job ever has the crappiest excuse for a management system ever. and they did it on my bday because they wanted to solidify the impression that they just suck balls. jerks. i'll chew on you, jerkies! with my molars and my saliva, i will break you down and destroy you.

in other news, my debt to the honorific lender benny is almost restored. hopefully i'll find a new job by next week, if only something that'll pay me enough to get by.

sarr took me out last night for my first bar-related adventure. and it was awesome. we drank and danced and sang karaoke and i was a happy happy girl. even if it was a full on blizzard for the evening. fucking weather, man, holy crap. you couldn't tell yesterday morning, or this morning that last night was cold and wet enough to produce snow enough to cover cars. wacky yo.

you'd think i woulda come up w/more things to say in the lapses between posts but no. i got nothin.

１００回のポスト！

2006-04-26T20:40:00.000-06:00

so... for whatever reason, my laptop won't let me make new posts. if anyone has any suggestions on that, let somebody know aight? in other news, hawai'i is old news but was fun as always. last saturday was my last late night of the semester, and it was a total blast. music, dancing, drunk kids, hell yeah. don't know if i've said this before but work isn't work when my friends show up. it's hanging out and asking questions and jus kinda of dealing w/people who apparently want on and off the bus. it's weird, i have this fan club of people who know my name and treat me like their savior, here to deliver them (to the hill). wild, huh. makes me kind of uncomfortable.

finals are coming but thankfully i only have one or two. the others are take home, which makes me real happy.

in other news, something exciting happens in a couple weeks. a lot of exciting things are happening but this one particular thing is something that will happen once and only once. and for this auspicious occasion, much celebration is expected and will carry on for days. in order to prevent this festival from being tainted, i will not name the holiday, but those who know already know. so let's do it up right yaal!

2006-04-20T13:34:00.000-06:00

so long time no post yeah yeah ok. sorry. life is busy and my computer was in the shop. also, i was in lala-land for the past week and it just seems like when i'm surrounded by warm water and hot sun, i really want nothing to do with computers. it was like being in paradise for a week, i was so happy. i wanted to play in the water more but what with it being rainy season, the wind and clouds were a deterent to me and my love for hot hot heat. and the band hot hot heat. but more so there's no weather i enjoy more than the warmth.

Blah Blah Blah, yadda yadda yadda, blah blah anchor clanker, blah blah buff bus, blah blah japanese, blah blah living, blah blah 4/2o, blah blah blah blah blah.

happy postings!\

2006-03-28T15:47:00.000-07:00

today i feel good. much better than at the end of yesterday. it was amanda's 21st so there was much partying. and i wore a pink strapless dress and white shoes that make me much taller while simultaneously wrapping around my legs. and in this ridiculous outfit, i did an unknown number of shots of tequilla and beerbongs. and i was having a blast! first time i drank with sar, as opposed to the usual result of me picking her up drunk. not that that isn't fun. cuz it is. but drinking with friends is a lot more fun than i remember. and real friends REAL FRIENDS don't make me feel embarassed when i have to ask for trashcans. last time i urled, it was miserable. i had to be helped into the shower by this girl i had hooked up with the day before and was dressed in clothes that didn't fit. my friends, during most of this, were in a back bedroom having some kind of multi person sexual adventure. ugh. but not REAL ULTIMATE HOMIES! this special breed of coolness lets people drive really nicely and walk me to my door, following my bumblebee path to make sure i dont get lost along the way.

anyway the point is i have now earned a reputation as a good driver. the transportation manager sent out an email that a lady from UCAR (think NCAR table mesa, think badass research) sent to him, complimenting the drivers sent to drive a group visiting from all over the world. how freakin cool is that?!
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Hello:

I work at UCAR and arranged to have a 44 passenger vehicle transport our guests during our meeting time frame of 3/22 - 3/25. This email serves as a letter of appreciation for
the following drivers: Charlie G., Grant and Denise. Our meeting guests
let me know that the drivers were responsible, punctual and drove safely.

I can't emphasize enough how much I appreciate their efforts!

Thank you very much for such great service!
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i am a happy busdriver.

2006-03-14T23:02:00.000-07:00

i'm avoiding hw right now. i know someone who would tell me to stop wasting time and to get my shit done. pfff. whatever. i can't focus. not sure if it's cuz i don't care or cuz i'm tired or what. i just can't get this crazy linguistics shit done. i'm spending my time trying to figure out what happens if i don't turn it in. i'm not about to stay up all night doing this assignment. blah. i'm talking online to this guy i dated in hs, if i could even call it that. it's a whole lot more fun than breaking words into their syllabic structures and using the sonority hierarchy to decide where stress falls. blah.

2006-03-09T09:45:00.000-07:00

i like waking up early to sun pouring into my room. today it was not sun, though. just frigid air since i turn the heat off at night. 77$ utilities bills are not cool, folks. so i layed in bed wishing i had a remote control to turn the heat on before i had to get out of bed. alas, no such luck, so i grudgingly rolled out of bed and into house shoes and a hoodie. even my flip flap isn't moving, because there is no sun reaching boulder today.

one of my best friends from high school is coming up though, and that's exciting.

also, who's up for lazer quest this weekend?!! let me know, so we can make it happen!

2006-03-08T19:54:00.000-07:00

it's snowing(!). i want to be excited about it because i love watching it come down. but really, i want it to be summer. i miss those hot days where i could wake up and jump in the pool to start my day.

today i drove to denver in a 40' 44 passenger bus. it's called a 'super transit'. the hardest bus to drive, it's also one of the warmest. i had the exact same bus last saturday and i had to get it towed because , unbeknownst to me, a heater hose fell off and it overheated. it was a 15min repair. had i known what to do, i could have saved the company about $75, but it was already pouring smoke by the time i realized it.

anyway--

looking at my control panel i feel like a pilot of sorts and i suppose that i am. i'm called an 'operator' not a 'driver' because not only do i drive but i do all kinds of other things that people don't realize. i fling doors open and turn heat on and use a counterintuitive air brake system like a freakin' pro. and at my fingertips are a million switches and buttons and levers that help me stay in control.

my favorite one is a really tiny lever. it's black and has a metal 'roto-grip' label on it. it is by far the most awesome of all the bus functions. rotogrip is like instant snow tires, the only issue being you have to flip the switch before you hit areas w/o traction. above both wheels are mechanical arms that have little wheels. on each wheel is strips of chain . when i flip the switch, these arms swing down and the little wheel rolls along the rear wheels of the bus and these chunks of chain go flinging around and around underneath the tires. ta-da~ instant traction when you need it!

is this not badass?

so honestly, i've never had a good reason to use the roto-grip. in fact, the only time i've turned it on was when it wasn't even snowing. it was more of an accident than anything. but still, the concept is freakin' cool.

in other news:
fatty fat fat the wobbly fish is alive and well. i'm thinking he just prefers breathing air to water
my anchor clanker made it to washington state aok and get this: he's a driver too (hehe)
the secretary bought me a pie and now they have promised me the "best brownies i've ever laid lips to"
everyone's dropping japanese 4 it seems, except me and sarah cuz we're hardcore like that

and that about does it for me. now to snooze a bit before movies, maybe warm up or somethin'.

2006-03-03T10:09:00.000-07:00

i can't get over how little work i actually do for my job. yesterday i was supposed to drive a dinky bus down to denver for repairs and another driver would pick me up in a hybrid. when i got to the office, to pick up the bus, chaos was happening. some lady's reservation was lost and they had me go drive her group from arapahoe and 20th to norlin. the time they waited for me, they could've walked. but they were old and some were a bit crotchety. (crotchitty?) so i drove them, then drove to denver with ben as my navigator/dj.

we stopped off at chickfila on the way back ( i love getting paid to eat), then got back to boulder with enough time to turn around and go get a bus and park it on campus.

the first round of indoor soccer tournament was tonight, and we played the team that is all of the outdoor refs. 4-1 was the final. harly carp they were quick as shit. i thought i was playing bad but really i think they were just that good. ben said so anyway. ben took a ball to the face and bled all over the court and his penny. so he kept it cuz that's not sanitary to let someone else where a penny w/his blood on it.

i went straight from the game to work, drove them back down the hill and went to the store with ben after he picked me up from base.

i came home w/tampico and fruity pebbles. then, i found myself curious. oh so curious about putting tampico in cereal instead of milk. this was ben's response:

"You need to find out if Tampico and Fruity Pebbles is a binary star, or if they're just two freaking different stars thrown together.

What you do is, take little bit and try it. And if it's good, you do it, and if not, you toss it out and go back to eating cereal and drinking Tampico. Separately. In two completely separate spheres of existence."

so i tried it, and it was indeed a no go. never again cuz the tampico is too tangy.

this post takes the place of my doing japanese homework before class.

2006-02-27T08:58:00.000-07:00

friday my eyelid was kind of hurting. saturday, it was somewhat swole and hurt all day. sunday i woke up and it was definitely more swollen and painful and red. it's a sty (read:eyelid pimple). so i hotpack it to help it clear up and come to a head so it can drain. ew, right? today, monday, i wake up and i can't open my eye. i thought 'maybe it popped overnight. that'd be cool'. i went to look in the mirror, had to rinse all the crap off my eye so i could open it. i immediately realize it wasn't what i'd hoped. my eye was crapped shut but also my entire eyelid is swollen now. i can barely open it. i have to go to the clinic looking like a battered girlfriend and then convince them that i'm not. the only thing i'm excited about is a pass they'll give me since i'll probably miss my japanese exam. anyway

next item of business: filters. my fish hates them, so i turned mine off. he seems much happier and wiggleful now.

also, got an ipod. didn't think i'd be able to afford it, but hey i'm not questioning things.

last thing i gotta mention -- a river of fabric on my ceiling for everyone's viewing and touching pleasure. pictures to come.

i must go now, so i can go get my eyeball fixed.

2006-02-20T20:36:00.000-07:00

hell yes. it's 20:35 and i have 14 hours to finish a paper and get 10 hours of sleep. so really, four hours. and for the last four, i've been doing all kinds of things. cooking rice pilaf, german choco cake, cleaning dishes and watching cheddar wiggle. cheddar the fish not the cheese. although he is called cheeze sometimes too. wally. archaeopteryx. ogomekuchan. also he is known as wiggleberry finnegan! yes folks, that's right--i have a new fish! and man is he cool. he's really round, a jolly fantail goldfish. his tiny maneuvering fins are overwhelmed by the weight of his superfluous amount of tail. so he can't swim, but man does he try. and the result is -- much wiggleings. all day. everytime i look at him. i bought him so i wouldn't have to be alone writing papers about movies. which is what i will now do. just as soon as i finish this post. yep, i'm going.

gonna sign off messengers. gonna close windows. gonna sit here and finish this paper. right now.

just gotta click publish, grab some cake and work.

seriously this time. ..

2006-02-19T15:31:00.000-07:00

first off, i am not afraid of ant's family. i think the problem is, when i go to bed, if my head isn't completely clear, i dream about whatever's on my mind. and mostly, when i'm in my bed that suddenly feels so empty w/o him in it, ant's on my mind. and it all just goes nutty from there. no real explanation

moving right along, winter has finally made it. it came stumbling in like it got caught up a bar, going 'sorry i'm late! lemme make it up to ya!'. winter, the original party crasher. winter, with its crappy greeley smell and its frigid air. blowing snow into the sanctity of my bus because the doors won't close all the way.

and onto new business

i'm going to hawai'i in april! (cartwheels.) in about 58 days, i will be flying out to hawai'i to see my honeykins for a week. side note, after this i most likely won't see him again until january. but i'm not thinking about that so much as i am the part where i get to go visit for a while. not sure how i'll make school work around that, but it's totally worth it.

all in all, this weekend is going ok. cold as shit but won't be here for much longer. word on the street is we'll see forties by tuesday/wednesday.

2006-02-16T15:47:00.000-07:00

i'm doing a lab for my sound systems class. the sound bites for the words i'm cutting up look like crazy energy wave pirannhas. i have no idea how to capture and post pics. sorry.
and carp shaped guilt

2006-02-15T21:24:00.000-07:00

i woke up from another weird weird dream this morning. weird enough that i didn't even want to go back to sleep. this was aided by the fact that the dreary light coming in made me think there'd be a white wonderland waiting outside. i'm trying to figure out what my problem is that i have these strange dreams, and here is my prognosis. i don't think i'm stressing about the marriage thing but i am. enough that every dream i remember involves post-marriage unhappiness.

last night's dream had me in my van with all of ant's family. without even asking, his mom and mal get in the front seats. i go to sit in the middle, but there's no room there either. i wind up sitting all the way in back, where there aren't seats at all. and i sit there. ant sees me, doesn't say or do anything and i just sit there. i watch his family argue and talk and drive and we wind up at chataqua (the lastest place i've thought of for big day)

everything is kind of ok for a while, i'm playing some weird game that resembles lacross. i go looking for him, i want him to play with me. i basically get blown off like those lyer people at the umc. suddenly, i realize that it's dark and ant and his family are gone gone gone. and i wake up.

no point really, to these dreams. or to my rambling about them. but i keep having dreams like this. the other day, i dreamt that less than a year after we got married, i had a kid. and he kept trying to feed it things that everyone knows babies can't eat. like chips, and other chunky foodstuffs. and i was just unhappy. completely unhappy. and i knew it. i looked at this kid and thought, this is not at all what i want.

i guess i have to wait a year and some chunk to see if i'm just being silly paranoid or what. suck. i need more distraction in my life. either that or i can just pass out drunk everynight and not dream of anything. or maybe not. i don't know a whole lot, is what i'm realizing. i thought i had a pretty good grasp of the world surrounding but um.. i think i was grossly mistaken.

right now i can't decide if i should keep typing. nobody reading will want to read much further than this, if you all are even reading still at this point. i could take up the argument that it's my blog and i can rant about whatever. another time maybe.

2006-02-13T09:48:00.000-07:00

friday at work, a couple friends of mine showed up just to ride around. it was a lot of fun. there was laughing and drinking and smoking ( i only did the laughing), and i was happy. it might have been the first time i worked all the way through the friday night shift--usually i leave early. then ben showed up and it was a straight up party. when i was going off shift, i traded buses with the other driver since it was -8 outside and his heat didn't work. and his bus had a 3" gap above the door that just poured in cold air. so i got on his bus, which was packed with partyers, and told them to get off. this is when i found out they know my name

no denise, they said. no don't go, you're cool denise. a good driver she is, said the guy who gave me $2 last week. i told them i'd be on the late night next saturday and collected 8 keystone light cans off the floor and threw them at the windshield of the other bus which made me giggle. nothing makes you feel badass like having these kids pleading with you to drive all night. no, wait, i take that back.

nothing makes you feel badass like driving to a high security plane hanger, and being directed by guys with orange flashy airplane landing sticks. they had me park on their landing pad, and gave me and the other driver a tour of the building, leaving us in the library to hang out and wait. i worked 5 hours that day, and drove for about 1.5 hours. this combination also furthers the badassness.

also, underground celebrity. i like it when i'm sitting in class and somebody is trying to discreetly point at me and i hear something about 'buff bus'... that's cool as hell. please, everybody, don't rush me. don't crowd me all at once with stories of your great times on my bus. no i don't remember that night, but you do and that's swell. so many people have random adventures with me and i don't even realize most of the time.

anyway i started this post a long time ago and forgot where i was going with it. so i stop here

2006-02-06T15:56:00.000-07:00

i'm on hold w/assholes right now. this will be the 5th time that i've cancelled my long distance. ever since august, i've been cancelling my long distance. finally, in january, i called with my mom (qwest employee extroidanaire) and bitched. the end result was 4 months of long distance charges credited back to me, and supposedly my internet cancelled.

the guy is telling me right now some crap about how she cancelled it on the 18th and on the 20th something was supposed to happen but didn't.

seriously, this time, my ld had better be cancelled. i'm so annoyed with these people. maybe not this guy, he's pretty funny. but the ones who sell me shit w/o explaining what i'm getting into. and the ones who somehow mishear me when i say, ' i don't want your long distance. fuck. you people suck.'

on a side note, i got a dvd player! for this i rejoice by watching hours of chapelle's show.

2006-02-05T16:43:00.000-07:00

so last night, i had the 330am shift and wasn't too excited at the beginning of the evening. after a couple loops, i started to enjoy the solitute and began pondering on a variety of subjects. blogosaur showed up right before midnight and that was great. i can't explain how much fun it is when people show up just to ride around with me.

some guy puked on my bus for the first time, but it wasn't nearly as dramatic as i thought it would be. his lady friend was really embarassed and cleaned it all up for me. all i did was hand her barf dust and disinfectant spray. the end.

after ben showed up and blogo left, a couple of bear creekers gave me $3.03 in tips. not really sure why but i have fun thinking cuz i'm just that cool. i'm the only girl doing night shifts now, i just realized.

the night ended with no excitement. the bus didn't die at the fueling station, partly because i didn't turn it off. the engine wasn't having a fuel filter problem and didn't seem likely to die ever 2 minutes. there was plenty of auto tranny fluid and it passed the brake checks. the only problem i had was that i can't park at 3:45am. at one end, the buses were too close to pass in between. at the other end, it was nice and roomy. i could have reparked, sure, but why. the guy the next morning could care less how nicely the bus is parked, so long as it runs right. so i left it parked, as is.

found items:
one pair of cop sunglasses
one empty case box of keylight
three empty cans of keylight
one green bic lighter
one broken cigarette
one unlabeled cd (a rap cd of sorts)
three copies of the colorado daily
two pop bottle lids (no bottles? weird)
$ .75 in change

so all in all, it was a good night for me.

2006-02-01T09:46:00.000-07:00

so my pet isn't up but maybe i can just put a link in for yaal to visit at your own leisure? go here. i dreamt that my aunt felt that she needed to sacrifice me in order to appease the god(s?) of her religion. so i ran like mad, started driving and suddenly my dream is burnout 3. flying around corners, taking out anyone who looked sketch to me. never crashed, and i woke up right after this. kinda weird.

just like the weather. a huge funky cloud is just chilling on top of boulder right now. i can see sun seeping around it, it's odd.

2006-01-30T09:52:00.000-07:00

i got a new pet! it's on the sidebar towards the bottom of the page if i put it in right. if not, it'll be up sooner than later. enjoy~

2006-01-27T15:22:00.000-07:00

so yesterday, the 26th, i got an email from cu saying that i would be charged fees for any classes i didn't drop by the 25th. and i'm like.. what? so i dropped the tesol class that i longed for so badly but failed to get into anyway. and then i hung out w/crystal and blogosaur and it turned into the night of cookies and flying circuses. cheap cookies, premade cookies, cook at home cookies they were all so delightfuly wonderful. and the tea which took on the color of blood as it (word for cooking tea)ed. i know it's not simmered or brewed or stewed. somewhere in there. anyway, the point is, my meal schedule for yesterday looked like this:

breakfast = a smoothie from the vendor next to the hot dog guy
lunch = pasta w/hotdogs and cheese sauce
dinner = a million cookies

and i'm sure i never got away with this kind of thing in high school.

when i finally got home around 10pm, and i realized that my toilet was running. and had been for the last 12 hours. suddenly my plan to just collapse into bed was no good.

moving right along,
i want a job where i can just study etymology. (/etyma/ = gr., truth, /-ology/ = gr. the study of). i find myself completely obsessed with the true meanings of words and then how through metaphor and other language evolutions and convolutions, take on new meanings. cherries, for example. cherise was a mass noun in french. this means you cannot have one of it. think like rice; you can't have 'a rice', you have to have a bowl of rice or a cup of rice or something. cherise was the same way. except when it came to english, they thought the 's' was a plural marker and figured if they chopped it off, they'd get the singular. i find these things fascinating. i really want to keep talking about this, but i won't.

i have found that if i go much further than that in any related vein, i loose interest exponentially.

nobody cares about these things. this is why somebody will design a t-shirt that says, 'i love bikini's', print thousands of these and people will buy them. nobody cares. grammar is a dying art and i one of the last generation. and in 40 years when they want conservative language critics, i'll be one of them, fighting to preserve good grammar and punctuation. this is my rant for the week.

oh, and since it's friday and i'm hittin' humboldt...

chizneck out this site. its too F-U-Double-Nizzy

dancing tila

and a
transparent screen

2006-01-25T15:48:00.000-07:00

i finally get around to posting and theyre telling me the system will go down at 4pm pst. im not sure but i think that means 5 for us coloradans. but i'm working my ass off these days trying to get ahold of my classes and trying to get as many decent work hours as possible. right now i'm pulling around 20 a week, waking up way too early once or twice a week. it's all going though and although i still don't get paid for a while, i know that the money is indeed coming. tonight is the cake concert, i'm so excited. and monday is mf doom! saweet! and hopefully i'll get to go to hawai'i and japan again this year, in may and then july. and hopefully i'll work it out so preston gets here before i leave. i miss you! and then i get to see anthony. i miss you! and my brother. i miss you! even though you probably don't know this site exists, rob, you're the coolest older brother ever. because you're having sucha grand time over there in shimoigusa and all.

today i got up at 630 to work at 7. i am tired. i will sleep before the show tonight

2006-01-19T09:00:00.000-07:00

so after a boring and outdated movie on postwar japan, blogosaur and i were strolling back to her apt when we decided to try and get into the dal ward athletic center, which has all these rumours of being available to only the ncaa teams and crap like that. imagine our suprise when it was open! so we wandered around this building and even though the lights were on, nobody was there. we eventually found the visitors lockerroom and then a door that had a draft coming around it. after going through that and then one more door, we were 12' from the actual folsom field. moments later we were running around on the grass, all kinds of excited because we were standing on a field that is normally impossible to get on w/o playing football or something. being surrounded by an entire empty stadium has a strange effect on you, like you just want to run everywhere. which we did. after laying in the O of colorado, beyond the endzone, we saw that there were people in the building but nobody noticed us. and as we were entering, we noticed the gate on the otherside was wide open. maybe the second gate was closed? we never investigated that. we continued searching the building, trying all the doors until we found ourselves right where we started and around the corner from a guy waxing the floor. so we left.

but dude! it was so fun, harly carp. i want to do more late night adventures in campus buildings that are never locked.

and it's snowing now? wtf, mate

2006-01-16T12:01:00.000-07:00

after this weekend, i've realized this semester is going to be tough. even though i'm only going to take 12 credits, i have to work as much as possible so i can get myself out of this hole i keep digging deeper into. i fucked myself by listening to my friend when he said he could cover the entire bill for bumperman(guy who's car i hit), which was $2k. so now, the money is due in a week and i have no cash. so another friend saves my ass and now i'll just owe him money instead. except paychecks are always two weeks off, so i won't even start getting money for work until the end of this month. and i need around half for him by the end of february (around $800). i knew all of this on saturday and i figured if i just worked at it, i could pull it off. then my dvd player broke. (cha-ching). and my lamp(cha-ching). and the back door of my van on the inside (cha-ching). and my laptop is seemingly dying (cha-ching).

and then i get a speeding ticket. the guy clocked me doing 83 in a 55, eb on i70. but since i had a cdl, he knocked it down to 74 so it'd be less points and i wouldn't lose my license and my job. (+20 karma for him). still, it's a 4 point, $130 ticket (CHA-CHING). now i need that in 20 days for it to only be a 2 pt ticket. or i could wait til my court date and maybe get it down to 1pt. i don't know how this all works, it's my first ticket.

there are a million lighters in my apartment that i can never find when i want one.

i got a bunch of new movies and tv shows on dvd for christmas that i can't watch now since i only have a laptop and it stopped playing movies long ago. makes me laugh even though it sucks.

so i was thinking about getting a loan from my banky bank but i'm trying to wait until i'm sure i can't make all of this work out on my own by working and not spending.

here's my hope: i work my ass off and get everything paid off like i need to, i still do well in school (a's and b's), and i finally learn time management? let it be noted that as i make all these plans, there are a million other things i need to be doing right now. like mailing bills and eating food and finding a tracking number so that qwest will stop ripping me off, five bucks at a time.

anthony left yesterday so now i'm all alone with my time to do what it is i want. i want to use this time to make sure that i graduate on time. and that i can afford to skit off to hawai'i every freakin' chance i get. last time around, i didn't see him for three months and it seemed a lifetime. this time, it'll be four to five and the time after, it'll be a full six months. and it never gets easier to walk away at the airport. especially when he gets me a nonpassenger pass so i can hang out by the gate with him. it's freakin impossible. makes me give the whole university of hawai'i bubble a second thought. he'd be gone for six months either way though, cruising around the pacific rim in a submarine. so, i might as well stay here, right? right....

it's such a green day. lazying around and not doing anything i should. great way to spend my last day off before school starts.

2006-01-12T10:17:00.000-07:00

so i've been everywhere but online ever since anthony got here. this includes the airport a few times, the zoo, game stores, his family's house (where we just got the internet up today), and my house. i do have net at my house but i don't have the patience for it right now, especially when such a cute guy is sitting 2' away from me. hung out w/blogosaur a lot, that was fun. i like the way hours fly by in bananaland and avacados and hot dogs and rice still taste as good as i remember. my schedule is all kinds of wacky and i have no books and i'm gonna be working 2 days a week this semester. so catch me on tuesdays and fridays, yaal.

2006-01-03T11:53:00.000-07:00

this is jeremy. and his tongue. this picture i had forgotten about but now it makes me giggle. we hung out and watched cartoons all night. thus i was happy. i like hazed and infused beer.

i love colorado. holy crap. and how am i in the alumni association when i haven't even graduated? i'm not sure.

anthony will be here in 2 days. i don't think i can be any more excited but we'll see how i get right up until i find him at the airport.

blogosaur has the coolest workplace ever. and man i love burger king.
that's all for now

2005-12-30T05:09:00.000-07:00

it's 610, we're leaving this lil town in an hour or less hopefully. i don't want to fully wake up, just be up enough to walk out to the van and pass out again. i'll be back in denver tomorrow afternoon. after new years, i plan to sleep most of the days away. then anthony (anthony? ANTHONY!) gets here on the 6th. yay. catch yaal later

2005-12-29T16:04:00.000-07:00

another week down in my winter break. tennessee is fun although i haven't seen the sun for a few days. i couldn't live here, i need my 300 days of sunshine. spaghetti dinner at gramma's in 10 minutes, i'm makin this post real short but maybe i'll get back on later. i'll be back saturday ma n i am so excited. i miss buff buses and avacados and home movies and fun.

meow

2005-12-25T22:14:00.000-07:00

there are four cats in this house. two of them have taken up residency in my bed. and they have positioned themselves so that i'll have to move the both of them just to lay down, and thus encouraging them to sleep on my face. and one of them, when it wants to be petted on his chin, puts his paw on your face. i find this action threatening but instead of moving him, i'm supposed to reward him? i think this is mostly because they have an affinity for the blanket i'm using. i wish ihad a cat in my apt at boulder. they're so weird and peculiar but i bet they make perfect sense to themselves and that reminds me of me.

tennessee

2005-12-25T19:46:00.000-07:00

happy christmas/solstice/hannuka(spelling?) to everyone. the days are longer which makes it seem like january 6 is that much farther away. i'm in clarksville, TN until the 30 and hopefully i'll be back in denver then boulder for lobster w/ben by the 31 eve. internet access is superlimited but i post when i can. i'm trying to be social since my mom's sister is letting me sleep on their couchbed and all. my cousins are fun and they probably think i'm on drugs although they may not know for sure a stoner when they see one. it's an awkward conversation to start w/family so i just don't. anyway, my aunt made applesauce cookies so i must go now.
i got nothing really yet for christmas cuz we aren't opening presents until i get back. what did everyone else get though?

2005-12-20T22:02:00.000-07:00

i just found out all my grades. i didn't wanna look. but you know how it is, the more grusome it is, the more you just can't tear your eyes away. but now that i know, i no longer care. i'm dropping the art major anyway and i might just take a japanese minor. it's great how i can brush away these craptastic grades.

blogosaur and crystal and i painted a mural on this retarded kid's wall today. the back story goes something like -he was abused as a child, a list of mental issues, his roommate (also retarded) died and he flipped out. off and ripped all the wall paper off, along with some of the wood panelling and the curtains. there is no furniture except a few mattresses because he dismantles it. and lately, because of suppositories, he craps a whole lot and wipes it on walls. and we get to paint his room in an effort to help calm him down. fun? yes!

so we started with trees. trees everywhere, every stick of wood left was turned into leafy happiness. and then we wanted a lake on one wall. so a side view of a lake went up, but with every fresh layer of blue, another layer of wallpaper came off. eventually we reached the original layer with lots of weird cats and lions and such, which was awesome. i really liked the animals as is, but since they were underwater, they had to be adapted. he'd freak out enough seeing weird creatures underwater, but without fins or anything? that just wouldn't do. and so, the cheshire catfish, lionfish and hippopoctopus were born.

in other news, i look arond my room and i see that it wouldn't take a whole lot to clean it up nice. if only i could accomplish that without getting out of this chair. i know that once i muster the juice to get up, the only place i'll go is bed. i got up at 7:40am and passed out in blogosaur's hammock around 19:45. woke up around 2030 to this japanese dude using a loop machine to sing nirvana's 'teen spirit' acapello all by himself. there was a lot of funny sounds involved.

i want to do something and man do i wish i knew what it was.

all i know is the roadtrip to tennessee with my family is going to suck w/o either sedatives or a music player.

what was the point again?

2005-12-14T12:57:00.001-07:00

today i gave a friend of a friend of mine a ride to work. it wasn't far or anything, i didn't mind at all. maybe a half gallon of gas? i don't mind. for some reason, giving rides to people brings me joy beyond what you'd imagine. i just loving doing such a simple thing that makes everyone's lives a lil easier.

when i was in high school, most of my friends' families barely had one working car so if we wanted to hang out, i would have to either ride the bus or get rides from my parents. i never was afraid of public transportation but my parents were, so riding buses in the late afternoon was always out of the question. also, it seemed that everytime i wanted to hang out somewhere and get a ride, there were a million other things to be done that day so it just wouldn't happen. i think i went to something like 3 or 4 parties in my entire high school career. maybe 3 people saw the inside of my house, because i was nuts enough to think they'd let me stay out in evenings. (not even nights really). but if somebody wanted to come over, it was a serious process of negotiation, cleaning, more negotiation, arguing and reasoning and all this shit, for about a month before hand. for this reason, only my closest friends were worth the hassle. when i got to know the school bus drivers, and they would drive me all the way to my front door, i became evergrateful. until the buses would stop in front of my house, my parents didn't truly believe it took 2 hours to take the school bus home. now they couldn't argue at all, and that was amazing.

even for my first two years of college, when they hadn't given me the spare car yet ( they had 3), if i came home i had to talk rides out of people. thankfully by this point everone but me had transportation. people didn't mind so much picking me up then. but i hated asking for rides, i felt horrible. and this is my little thought process on why i love giving rides to people. and maybe part of my fun at work? just made that connection.

so anyway, the point of this is the girl made me a latte on the house. and she did this real cool design with the foam, and i didn't wanna know how she did it. i just wanted to look at it and be in awe cuz it's real pretty. i'd never seen one in person. so here it is:

2005-12-14T12:57:00.000-07:00

2005-12-12T11:44:00.000-07:00

one final down and three to go. i have my art history exam at 130 today which means i need to do everything but study right now. i woke up at 9am this morning to the phone ringing and w/o even getting out of bed, i knew who it was. ava, the secretary at my work calling to try and talk me into working when i've already told them i'm unavailable until wednesday. i couldn't go back to sleep because i had a headache, so i moped around my apt for a little while. checked my mail - apparently anthony got hit up by his captain's kid for magazine subscriptions. and what does he do? send them all to me. now i've got modern bride and a scuba diving (?) mag sitting here. i have no scuba diving inclinations at all, but maybe blogosaur does so i'll probably give it to her. we could start trading nakey girl mags for scuba mags since i know they don't really match our respective personalities so much. at least, i don't think so.

i saw narnia w/her and crystal and ben the other night, and some other friends. it was fun and i laughed at all the wrong moments. for those who don't know, the book had serious christian undertones, so the movie does jus it felt a lot more blatant. and all i could think of was the super friends episode of south park, season five. with jesus trying to outdo david blaine's miracles but man he sucks. really crappy slight of hand, where he goes, 'ok turn around. t t turn around?' until everyone does. then he busts a glass of wine instead of water and is all, yea dude i rock.
so aslan does that in the movie. this doesn't sound very funny and that might be because i lost an entire brand new phatty sack during the movie... but trust that at the time, we were laughing so much that people behind us wanted us silenced. and lucy's face really really bothered me. the only kid who didn't come off as bratty and snivelly was peter, who just had a sci fi fiend going, so that everytime he pulled his sword out, he just pointed it straight out and waited for cool shit to happen. made me giggle, really.

anthony is back in three days! yay. nobody else cares really but it has to be said.

after the movie, we all came to my place, where it was decided that i would drive the bus around while wearing a pirate hat and listening to the music from 'pirates of the caribbean'. i'm wearing my pirate hat right now. and it is indeed awesome. my favorite quote was 'if you want to stop at kittredge, you'll have to parlay', but you gotta say it w/a piratey accent. thanks to ben for that one.

and why is it nobody takes an interest in you until you're with somebody else. it's frustrating. where were all of these people a few months ago when i was all kinds of single? and it's not fair to be mad at me for timing that is out of my hands.

christmas is fast approaching - who's up for a gift exchange type set up or maybe some kind of white elephanty thing?

2005-12-03T11:51:00.000-07:00

and this is a cool little blurb.

2005-12-03T11:38:00.000-07:00

wednesday, a guy signed into my bf's messengers and wreaked havoc. he had me convinced, against all the obvious flags, that he was a/my bf, and that b/he had banged a stripper the night before and no longer wanted to marry me. i believed this for about 2 hours, most of that spent looking for reasons not to. it was just too bizarre to be happening, too goddamned crazy. but thankfully, blogosaur came to visit and brought tidings of oatmeal and chai tea.

except by oatmeal i meant cement. when she was making it, she thought it looked soupy and even though it hadn't even cooled and thickened, she thought a few more packets of oatmeal would do the trick. so what i had was an oatmeal brick in a thermos. it was seriously the consistency of paste. hodge podge or something. i wanted to spackle paper onto the bus just to see if it would hold. but it was good, and i was glad to have company, someone to talk to. good oatmeal, just real hearty.

later we found cheezwhiz in my car and made igloos with goldfish and cheeze mortar. this is what life is about.

thursday was uneventful except for when i ran into alex! auxiliary best friend of preston. i was happiness to spend time w/him and check out his apt and all that kinda social stuff.

last night i was absolutely content to be cruising around in a 35' bus. bumpin' jams, talkin' to kids and having a good time. took a flock of girls in skirts and uggs up to the hill, where my windshield fogged up cuz they wouldn't stop breathing. so i had matt looking out the passenger side windshield to make sure i didn't crunch anything. the snow was beautiful, everyone was so happy to see it finally. in case you don't know, the snow has been skipping boulder, only leaving icy winds behind in it's place.

as much as i want this semester to be over, i'm really enjoying it these days

turkey!

2005-11-24T17:24:00.000-07:00

i'm in nebraska. it looked so nice outside but really, it's like 30 degrees here. and that stupid humid cold. somehow i forgot that nebraska was like this. but it's ok, i'm here with my family and i'm happy. we ate turkey and cranberry sauce and stuffing and potatoes and fried rice and tempura shrimp. all the prototypical foods plus some other goodnesses. man it's about that time for me to lay up like a beached whale, unbutton my jeans and pass out. to me, this is what thanksgiving is all about. how was everyone else's?

2005-11-20T21:56:00.000-07:00

oh yeah and i hit a pole with my bus on wednesday. worst part? now everybody makes fun of me. nobody really cares that it cost $200 to wench me off of the pole and all. lol

2005-11-20T03:04:00.001-07:00

i almost feel like i should get involved w/this. but then i figure nobody would acknowledge that i walked out of anything. i also get the feeling that this might go something like the shoulder 2 shoulder lines went last year. and it didn't accomplish/do a whole lot for our racism issues at CU, which definitely do exist, obviously.

on a side note, i got flannel pants and resevoir dogs and my baby called me. harry potter was fun and i love sleep.

in my email was:
Please Forward Widely!!

Hello,

As many of you know one of our Tri-Execs, Mo, was the target of a
terrible
racist attack. This is just one incident in a series of racist,
sexist, and
heterosexist incidents to take place on campus. Therefore join us
on TUESDAY
NOV. 22nd at 1:00pm as we take a stand and walkout of our classes
and march to
the regents. It is time to show the administration on this campus
we are fed
up and we are taking action. Please tell everyone you know about
the walkout
this coming tuesday at 1:00pm.

In addition, many are taking white tshirts and in sharpie
markers, or by
whatever means possbile writing "WE SUPPORT MO". On the back some
are
writing "STOP HATE AT CU" If you have a tshirt and a sharpie
lying around
please take the time to show your support for MO.

Thank you,
Sincerely,
The Women's Studies Student Advisory Board

2005-11-20T03:04:00.000-07:00

2005-11-16T01:49:00.000-07:00

man do i enjoy blowing paint across boxes. and tomorrow, for the first time, i am eligible to donate blood and i will. i'm way excited about that. and about a new cd ben hooked me up w/. mix cds make driving so much more fun for me, since it's not like i'm paying attention to driving anyway. i'm on my fifth bowl of cereal for the night. i guess my baby's gone for a week longer than i thought, which sucks but ok. i might be going to omaha for turkey? cool. and i have three pairs of toasty houseshoes in one small apt--amazing. this winter won't be so bad

2005-11-09T20:55:00.000-07:00

now, as i come dangerously close to promising myself to one person for life ever after, i've been thinking about all of my past adventures, recapping the lessons learned and making sure that this isn't all a giant mistake. (not that i think it is, but it's good to be double plus sure). so let's do this chronologically

1998 somewhere in here, this kid who lives down the street and i hit it off and date for months. i don't remember a whole lot other than this. his name is max

1999 somewhere in here, we break up amidst all kinds of crazy drama w/our families. oh the joys of being 15 and crazy emotional

2000 a sophomore in hs, i meet this freshman named dzuy and develop a debilitating crush on him

2001 spring semester - i take this crazy math class with 5 other people, including jarrad, chelsea and this guy anthony

2001 april 20th - dzuy asks me out and so begins my longest relationship to date, ~1.5 years

2002 fall of my senior year, when school starts, i have the sinking feeling that whatever was there was gone w/dzuy, we break up before thanksgiving // lesson = don't try to save something when you know in your heart that it's gone

2002-3 over break, i hang out with max a lot, pure rebound

2003 spring - i meet this guy on msn named keith. although the original plan is fwb, we wind up dating, knowing damn well he's going to move to texas, not go to college in colorado

2003 fall - i irrationally decide to go visit, and like everyone else predicted, it wasn't worth it. i officially end it in november // lesson = i can't wait forever for someone to decide to do anythin with their life

2004 spring - i meet all kinds of crazy people on crazy websites and off and date this guy(was it even dating? i don't know) through the summer

2004 summer - i meet this guy, oleg, at king soopers. knowing damn well it's only a summer thing, i let myself be talked into being his girlfriend.

2004 winter - i am absolutely miserable but i've fallen into habit. it's easier for me to just roll with it than to break up with him and be done with it

2005 spring - at shawn's bday party, i keep him up all night (pun intended) and we have a total blast. it remains one of the best nights of my life, although that girl was unhappy the next day.

2005 april 1st - i break up w/oleg and he continues to show up in my life at inopportune times, completely oblivious to the things that had me miserable for so long, still wanting me to explain to him why it would never work // lesson = don't date douchebags

2005 summer - i enjoy my freedom to the max, until july when i get tired of it and start watching for someone who i could stay w/and be happy. i develop a crush on this guy and wait for my chance to make it happen. in the meantime, max, shawn and jeremy are my most fun friends and it's a grand ol' time.

2005 august - i get a message on myspace from a guy named Anthony who apparently went to high school w/me? i barely remember him from the picture but we start talking online since he's in the navy in connecticut. we make plans to hang out when he's back in colorado.

2005 september - we finally hang out and i find myself super comfortable super quick. he even
laid in the grass with me! how cool is that? // i go to his birthday party and later in the evening he sees a shooting star and wishes for a kiss. everything escalates from this point, i don't want to leave his side and i don't want him to leave the state. when he does, i accept that it would have been great but the timing was just wrong, so i prepare to start to move on.

september 25th while talking on the phone, he suggests we get married so we can both live in hawai'i. it takes me an hour to come down from my high and realize how serious he is

october 18th he flies me out to hawai'i for a few days

october 2oth he proposes to me while we're watching a sunset and standing in the ocean

january 10th - we make this official?

sometimes i worry that i'm letting all this happen too fast. but then i try to explain exactly how amazing everything is and feels to me. how there are things about him that i never thought i would find in a guy who was also sexy, smart and motivated in life, oh and attracted to me. it's all completely unreal to me. why say no when i have someone who only makes me want to say yes to everything he says?

back for round two

2005-11-07T15:59:00.000-07:00

thursday night i stayed up entirely too late

friday i was up from 830am to 2am, at which point i decided to go hang out w/of my two closest friends from freshman year(who aren't in japan. i miss you preston!) i crashed around 420am.

saturday i worked from 10am to 1230. i ran errands and went back to work at 430, getting off around 830(i was scheduled to be off at 730). earlier i had said i'd take another driver's late night shift if absolutely nobody else did, figuring i could sleep between shifts. i got home at 9 and went back to work at 930, working until 410am. matt and i kicked it until 615am.

sunday, anthony called me at 1130am and i was up all day from there. i moved in a new couch and with lots of help from ben and sarah, had a brand new arrangement in 2 hours. i was up until 1130 when i hung up too quick w/anthony because i was too high to deal with him being too drunk. does that make sense?

the point is, i am exhausted. and im up from now until 1230 at the latest. or 1030 at the soonest

3 more weeks! let the countdown begin

2005-11-04T08:43:00.000-07:00

i bought this punch card for an auto place. like all kinds of free/discounted services, including four free oil changes. the card says 'free' on it. but apparently, what they meant was i pay for getting rid of the oil. which is like $15 dollars. for 20 i could just get it done somewhere else. somewhere where they at least offer coffee. but i accept it, call and make an apt for today. 9am. that means i dont get to sleep in late.

i spend 15minutes searching for the place, going from 30/valmont to foothills to baseline and back up 30 before calling them from another auto place on the corner of 30/valmont. and after all this shit i get in there, and she's like... oh you had a 9am appt too? because she forgot to write it down or some shit. i would've had to wait 20 minutes and not go to japanese but then oh yes then they could get me right in. fuck that.

just because i'm failing classes doesn't mean i shouldn't at least show up.

hot damn

2005-10-30T14:58:00.000-07:00

people ask me what it's like driving late nights on the buff bus. and i'm always like, oh the noise? doesn't bother me. so long as they don't mess w/my bus, ya know? but, honestly.. last night was one of the most trying nights of my life.

on the weekends, buses run until 3am. and on saturday there's only one bus for the whole night. and on this particular halloween party saturday, it was me. it was fun at first, looking at all the costumes and watching the drunken revelry. then it got hectic

around 11, i pull into bear creek and a crowd of around 60 people. my bus can hold 44 seated plus however many standing. i couldn't even close the door because people wouldn't listen to me saying i can't close the door until people get off. i'm already getting frustrated at this point.

i pull up to will vill and there are something like 120 drunk kids waiting. people are being trampled. people trying to get off can't cuz everyone is rushing the one door. the on-duty r.a.'s are there waiting for me, and tell me they're calling the cops because we can't control this many people.

from this point on, i do my best to only let on 44 - 50 people at a time. i also start alternating between will vill and bear creek because it's the only thing i can do.

matt finally shows, so does josh, a driver. just knowing someone else is there makes me feel better. when they got on, i was literally shaking. i was so frustrated with people and their lack of cooperation that i was about to flip out. i don't have much experience w/just telling people what to do. i count on people to want to help me out, to understand what's going on and what i need. when they don't do this, i have no back-up defense. and it sucks

everything gets easier at this point, i have two helpers keeping the peace with me. everything goes until i get to the music stop and this girl(guy? we remain unsure) tries to get on. refuses to listen to the situation because she's been waiting 30 minutes and won't wait anymore. it takes 15 minutes to walk home from anywhere on campus. fuck that noise. she tries to force her way on to the bus and matt literally removes her from the bus and sets her down outside. she kicks him and seems about to come flinging at him before backing down. i had already called the cops because i thought it was going to be a knock down drag out fight. so that's twice.

the rest of the night was fairly quiet. some people got mad cuz i wouldn't let them on but overall, the drunks were understanding.

numbers:
cans of keystone light 12
cans of keystone crammed into the heater 2
empty bottles of mickeys 1
glittery snowflakes 5
fire hats 1
devil horns 2
id cards 1
packs of gum that weren't returned w/id cards 1
people who lost shoes while trying to board 10
apologies recieved for bus drama 60
people moved in 6 hours 700

after cleaning and parking the bus, matt and i went back to my apt to enjoy some post work smoke and then denny's. when i passed out after talking to my baby for a while ( i wish he could've been there w/me all night for support), i let my exhausted mind and body float into the abyss.

a good night overall

in case you were wondering

2005-10-26T00:14:00.000-06:00

so today i was sitting around wondering, what is the true definition of googly eyes? so here it is, folks, for your wonder and amazement. wikipedia is ridiculous.

2005-10-20T13:36:00.000-06:00

this time last year, i could barely plan two weeks ahead. maybe go job searching( i had just quit my old job about this time), maybe go grocery shopping. i spent my free time going to denver w/my bf of the time and hanging out w/my friends. i managed to get most of my classwork done on time and all was dandy.

my life is suddenly overwhelming. i am now engaged to ana amzing guy and i need to graduate on time (i'd been thinking of taking 5 years instead of 4). i work 20 hours a week and my outside of class workload has piled up like mountains of dirt scattered about my apt. i barely eat once or twice a day, and i spend all my free time trying to keep a handle on all the things i have going on, like soccer (we're in round three of the tournament) and not forgetting the friends who have gotten distant for various reasons ( preston's in japan and jeremy moved away) as well as the friends who are right around the corner ( like shawn and company). the rest of my college classes have to be major or core requirements if i want to come anywhere close to a may 2007 graduation. i've yet to face the fact that it might not work. that i might not be able to get through all my major classes in that time. it'll be another summer school summer, probably.

anyone wanna take a crack at this question on my math pretest?

a. 1601 x (10 + 1.06)

b. 1601 x (1 + 1.06)^10

c. 1601 x (1 + 10)^0.06

d. 1601 x (1 + 0.60)^10

im thinking b but only because none of the others make sense....

2005-10-15T18:38:00.000-06:00

umm.. i spent like 30 minutes making a post. i clicked 'post' and some how i lost it. so fuck it i dont have the patience. but hawai'i is a blast, i ate at a revolving restaraunt and was proposed to while standing in the ocean watching a sunset. there isn't much more that i could ask for. except maybe a usb cord so i could load pictures. owell. time for snorkeling

2005-10-11T14:12:00.000-06:00

two days!
omg i can't wait. things to do between then and now
1. my math hw
2. shower
3. pack
4. study for exam of doom
5. take exam of doom
6. go to other classes
7. work 6 hours
8. sleep 2 hours
9. take a buttload of nodoz
10. catch AB bus at 4am to dia
11. don't miss flight out of oregon to hawai'i. remember what happened last time?

~deep breath~ ok here we go

2005-10-08T14:15:00.000-06:00

this past week, i've found out i failed a midterm and i got a written warning about messing up at my job. by 6pm, i had an oncoming headache and nothing to take for it. and i still had 6 hours of driving ahead of me, in rickity buses.

by 8pm, it's killing me. i go home and take 1500mg of acetomenaphen(somebody check my spelling) at 910pm. 930, i'm driving again and it's only worse. i try to not think about it, to ignore it. but it won't go away. it's there, like a powerdrill, slowly making it's way into my temple. it's pushing into my head, through my eyeball and it's painful. i could cry but i can't. i just keep driving until i get a chance to get a hold of the other night driver. fortunately, late night drivers rock, and he tells me to go home whenever. by the time my friend picks me up and takes me home, i am almost paralyzed. every movement, sound and light is driving the drill into my head and making me want to scream.

at 11pm, i crawl miserably into bed and curse the migraine for ruining my evening. i let percocet carry me away in her comforting arms.

2005-10-02T21:40:00.000-06:00

this picture makes the hell that was this morning worthwhile. because it gives me something to look forward to.

it's hard to enter a relationship without bringing baggage from previous boys into it. i don't want to do it, but today i did it. and it was handled so well and i feel so much better about it now than i ever did before. i hope this only gets easier w/time.

2005-09-30T10:08:00.000-06:00

it's 1010am and ive been up for 3 and a half hours. 18 hours remain of this day. i'm sick and my nose is running more than i have lately. i was late to my first shift, im glad i wasn't taking over one. people would be unhappy. i'm in the pc lab, eating a bagle, drinking vitamin water and typing through yao san's presentation. it's nothing against him, i'm jus crashing already and trying to holdon. id play with my hair except i don't have any. i want it to be long again.

after japanese, i have art history, linguistics and art history recitation. i'm relieved from duties until 6pm when i have to drive. off again fro, 830 to 945 and then im on til 1245. maybe i can get off early? that would be ideal.

i went to the bouncing souls show on monday. and it rocked. the guy i went with got me a 21+ band and we had a blast. i even went in the mosh pit, albeit only for a minute before i had a panic attack and couldn't get out. i felt like a football, the way he grabbed me and straightarmed his way out of the pit. i couldn't breathe. but it was a great experience.

driving home wasn't because the windshield wipers didn't work and it was raining like crazy.

i'm going to hawai'i in less than two weeks. ok so a week and 6 days but still... all the things i'm going through w/navy boy has me wondering when this dream is going to end. i'm trying to see it all with a clear head, and it's jus now starting to work. it's wild to think i could be living somewhere else in under two years. a month ago, i figured i was boulder based for an indefinite period. i also figured i'd be single for the forseeable future and definitely unmarried for years. all of that was changed w/one conversation. ive been riding this high and it keeps getting better.

i want to be at my parents' house, drinking cocoa and talking w/my family. i miss waking up on winter mornings and shoveling snow. for some reason, i have a sentimental attachment to shoveling. especially the way we all try to help my dad but really we all just make more snow messes for him to clean up. sigh.

2005-09-26T14:22:00.000-06:00

i haven't been able to sleep at night. i wake up 3 to 4 times a night, for sometimes but not always obvious reasons. when navy boy was here, i slept like a freakin' rock, even amongst all the chaos that was his house.

i'm staring at all this furniture that i've managed to acquire in 24 hours and i'm so happy. especially cuz i have a big comfy roller chair now. i got two bookshelves too, which is 2x as many as i thought i'd have by now. and a new lamp, for my bedroom.

it's nice because i finally have motivation to clean and organize. but i have to make all these executive decisions as to what i want where and it's a lil difficult. i was never the design inclined person in my family.

my future plans have all completely changed shape over the last 3 days, all because of an amazing seaman in hawai'i who apparently thinks he would love nothing more than me by his side for extended periods of time. i thought he was messing with me cuz i was under influences at the time and highly gullible. he wasn't joking. and i'm trying my best to retain composure.

i never thought i'd be around for this point in my life. especially not like this. i mean - i thought if i ever even thought about it, it'd be like a good friend of mine and it'd be a commonlaw marriage because we jus wanna reap benefits but not necessarily get hitched. but he says he had a dream and that his dreams are never wrong. he says he'll have a wife who's insane and sporatic, so long as it's me. he says there's so much he wants to say but can't until we're in person. and when he tells me that, i can feel the emotion. i want to reach out and grab it and hold on to it. and him for that matter. i want him here to help me sleep and help me now how to feel about this because it seems like he knows better than i do.

sigh

the soonest i'll be able to visit him, which is more doable than him coming here, is in december. until then, i get to wonder what kind of surprise he's planning, and how i would react. it's great for spacing out during class. i want to tell everyone, i want to scream out to the world that i feel so amazing. but then i look back at every other relationship i've been in. i look at the results and the fact that i was never happy. i look at all the times i've had my hopes shattered like a bus window on a saturday late night. nobody notices, nobody cares. i'm afraid that somehow this will go the same way. i am utterly terrified of that but i'm trying to trust.

it's hard because i have no previous experience w/something this serious.

all i can do is make comfort foods like ramen and macncheese, play soccer and drive buses. and somehow come up w/700 for a flight. i realize this post went nowhere but it matters not. i feel better.

crappy update

2005-09-22T11:38:00.000-06:00

today is beautiful. it's so foggy out that you can't even see the base of the foothills. but it's not raining or anything, although you can feel the moisture in the air. this is probably the first time i've really looked forward to, on any level, colder weather.

my whole world of friends keeps rearranging right now. i met an amazing guy who moved to hawai'i a week later. we went to hs together and i seriously never thought i'd catch up w/him again. spending time w/him makes me wonder why i even dated the people i did, when i was obviously so much happier w/him. we spent all of sunday following whims. this lead us to multiple parks, drinking, the goodwill, and lunch among other various stops. there's nothing as satisfying as doing whatever you feel like for a whole day.

one of my homeboys just broke up w/his gf. (some of you know what that means for me). i'm getting closer and closer to telling my crush what's up. he prolly figured it out months ago and just never said anything. that'd be truly hilarious.

i work 4 days a week, 3 of them are spent ending the long bendy bus. as it turns out, it's one of my favorite buses to drive because of the suspension and the sound system. i can get serious bass going on cds and the bumps in the road don't even cause skips usually. the only sucky thing is having to catch a bus home but even that isn't a big deal. i live a mile and a half away from base, which isn't even that bad.

i'm starting to get back into the swing of classes and studying. just in time for midterms, of which i only have two--today and tomorrow. now that i'm getting on that, i can start clubbing on the weeknights again, and maybe keep my apt in a lil better shape. that's something i'm gonna work on right now.

preston called me yest4erday morning, and it absolutely made my day. next to what the navy boy did to wake me up, i can't decide which is a better alarm clock. sigh

somebody up there loves me

2005-09-12T15:22:00.000-06:00

this weekend, i thought for sure i was dead at least three times. but i am still here, in one piece and it amazes me that i made it.

saturday, i drove a 50' articulated bus(the bendy one) down to south high school and back. this involves keeping up w/bob, who loves driving these buses. i was scared shitless most of the time. here's the deal - the hinge is supposed to lock at speeds upwards of 35mph, so the bus is stiff. this keeps it from swaying while driving at high speeds. i'm fairly convinced that the buses in our fleet have this disabled. i was, at the scariest moments, swaying between three lanes of traffic with people flying by on both sides. i would have my foot off the acceleration, trying to tap the brake just enough to get my steering back. i was making the smallest adjustments to the wheel as possible, praying that if i slow down and steer well, i'd regain control.

it was like this during both halves of the trip, and there were more than one moment where i thought i was going to jackknife and die. and i had accepted it. i was completely comfortable with the fact that i could easily die on this night and that at least i had given it a shot. i knew, when i got on the bus, what could happen. and i figured it was better that i had taken the risk and confronted my fear than to run away and never know what would have happened.

so that was saturday. after that, i took over a super transit and had a blast becasue it was so easy to drive.

sunday, i barely got sleep.
i'm driving back to boulder at 245 am. i know it's a short drive and i just have to focus, so i get going and do everything i can to stay alert. 315 i get home, get out of my car and i cannot remember much of the drive. i have no idea how fast i was going, if i was passing people if there were any cops or anything. it's all a blank. even getting off at my exit is a blank.

i decide i just need to go to sleep, worry about it tomorrow. so i lay down and start to pass out. i wake up almost immediately because i think i'm still driving. in my dreams, i'm counting mile markers so when i wake up i freak out and think i fell asleep driving. after doing this a couple times, i turn on the light and start reading in an effort to keep myself from falling asleep at the wheel.

around 5am i realize i am laying in bed, not driving anymore. i fall asleep and crash through both of my morning classes.

this weekend makes me feel like maybe karma is a serious aspect of my life that i need to acknowledge more often. i never want to die in a burning heap of metal and engine.

2005-09-09T10:00:00.000-06:00

last night i found a picture from my freshman year.

it was one of the first times that preston and i hung out. (completely offtopic but there's a hottie in my art class named preston too) a tampon company was letting people get dressed up and take pictures. it was fun as shit even though my scanner won't talk to my laptop right now.. so i can't load it. sigh. do you remember, preston?

dude... seriously

2005-09-04T18:26:00.000-06:00

so my homie and i are sometimes tryin' to meet cool peoples online. sometimes it works, sometimes you meet guys who are pretending to be girls who won't give their number or meet you. then they flip out on me because my friend called them out for being a guy. and it results in conversations like this. keep in mind, that my friend blocked them over a week ago and hasn't contacted them since then.

nicole : well please tell him that if ever contacts me again, then i will send the police to his front door and charge him harrassment and stalking
gloverbunni : ok
gloverbunni : lol
nicole : i hate that son of a bitch and am very serious !!
gloverbunni : yeah um
gloverbunni : im not arguing w/you
nicole : i've already contacted the police, they know who he is and where he lives
gloverbunni : so.. you dont have to yell at me
gloverbunni : and keep bringing it up
gloverbunni : i really dont care one way or the other whatever issues you two have lol
nicole : fine, just ask him to leave me alone !!
gloverbunni : is he not?
nicole : thank you
nicole : no he is not
gloverbunni : heh
gloverbunni : lol thats great
nicole : he keeps contacting me
gloverbunni : like IM?
gloverbunni : cuz as far as i know, you never gave him your phone or anything
nicole : i haven't
nicole : he keps contacting me online
gloverbunni : ah
gloverbunni : and you havent blocked him?
nicole : and i went to the police about it
gloverbunni : right
gloverbunni : i got that
nicole : i keep blocking him and he manages to contact again
nicole : and again
nicole : and again
gloverbunni : under different names or what
nicole : no, the same name
nicole : he unblocks himself which makes me think he's a hacker
nicole : if he contacts me one more time, he will find himself in serious felony trouble
gloverbunni : right
gloverbunni : ok
gloverbunni : its all whatevs to me dude
gloverbunni : lol
nicole : like i said, the police already know who he is, where he lives and are monitoring his account to see if he's hacking people's computers
gloverbunni : werd
gloverbunni : well let me know how this all works out
gloverbunni : for the entertainment value
nicole : i'll let u know if contacts me again
nicole : he's a fucking asshole

the end. i was seriously laughing the whole time. because it's simply ridiculous.

wow

2005-09-04T17:38:00.000-06:00

so i've been working at 630am this entire business week. that was a bit rough but i made it. went to bed early, blew all my friends off, and just did it. yesterday, though, was unprepared for. 12 hours of work total. i was up at 830, and i as i lay i bed, i was so happy just to sleep in. then i realize that even at 830, most of my friends are still asleep.

i drive down to denver, pick up like 50 8-year old kids and take them to boulder for the football game. as a result of doing this shift, i get a free ticket, which is cool. so i go to the game at half time cuz i know the hot sun and walking involved will make me tired. i leave immediately after we intercept the ball, only to have the ball intercepted by csu in the next play. i figure, we're going to lose, and i accept it and move on with my day.

after taking the kids back and taking the bus back, i go home and try to make something happen w/this friend of mine. but i've discovered that for whatever reason, i dont quite have that drive to get some at every opportunity i have, anymore. so we hang out from 830 to 930, and i take over the 3am bus at 937.

i get on this bus, and the driver tells me that even before she took it over, it had a broken window in the front door. also, there are 3 broken panes in back. so i figure i'm in for a rough night of rowdy drunk freshmen, and i don't have batteries to power my p.o.s. fm transmitter. matt shows up and i beseech him to pick up some batteries or we will be doomed to listen to radio for 5 hours.

unfortunately, for the first hour or so, the will vill stop is so crowded, we're leaving people behind every time. i'm driving w/ just enough space to see out the mirrors, the bus has something close to 90 people on it. it's a 44 passenger bus. i'm sure this is unsafe. i'm also sure this is exactly what every other night driver puts up with. i was having a blast.

once we got the music going, and the crowds died a bit, i couldn't think of anything more entertaining to do than talk to matt about everything and socialize with the kids who thought i was freakin' amazing because i picked them up and dropped them off just about anywhere.

i did have one kid flip me off and tell me he waited 40minutes for the bus. whatever dude, the most he could have possibly been waiting was 20. and it's a 15 minute walk from anywhere on the loop back to will vill. drunk bastard

at the end of the night, around 310am, i took inventory and had no new damage or puke or anything. not even too many cans or trash. after putting 39 gallons of fuel in a 60 gallon bus, i finally got back to base and post tripped. matt picked me up and we went to bk for some postdriving fun and food. i still can't think of a better way to have spent the wee hours of my morning.

we sat around and laughed to tears about everything. from my art class to friends of his to cooking to coupons to the lady at the drive through. nothing was sacred and i loved it.

i slept in from 540am to 5pm. i have tons of shit to do today, but seriously doubt none of it will be done.

pix and such

2005-09-01T10:03:00.000-06:00

i realize i have a lot of friends with blogs that are so much more entertaining than mine. some of them actually have the patience to upload pictures. which reminds me, ill do that in a second here.

but in the meantime here are some fun blogs by fun people who help me pass the time

blogosaur

insomniac

preston

ok so the list isn't that long. but whatever
here's some pictures too
since i don't recall which ones i loaded, i hope everyone can figure out what's going on in all the pics. have fun. comment with your guesses on the situations

general frivolities

2005-08-27T12:05:00.000-06:00

so i woke up at 8am on friday. don't know why. i barely slept 7 hours but whatever. it gave me time to go buy more textbooks finally. except for all the books i need are sold out now. somebody is laughing at the fact that i was looking at them all week, and when i finally have money, i can't get a damn book. so i got myself a soft blue hoodie that i've been eying for weeks. it honestly was a start to a great day. i was in classes from 10-3 w/an hour break then went home to crash before work.

driving was fun once the sun went down because everyone was probably hammered but they were funny. i'll be sad the day that the drunken chaos doesn't amuse me anymore. i got all atitter cuz this guy i'm crushing on was waiting to get on and ride the 3am run. it made me sad that it wasn't gonna be me driving and all. owell, next saturday, it's me and him and hopefully it'll be a fun night? it's the cu vs. csu game. played in boulder. i can't decide if it'd be better if we lost or won lol. i'm guessing riots either way, considering the mindset of the average too-drunk student.

i went to crystal's party, and was completely exhausted most of the time. harvey called and it was basically a drunk dial but it was fun. he really is like a totally different person these days, i love it. but he was a lil sad cuz his main girl is in france for the semester. i was a lil sad cuz it's probably an exclusive kind of thing, which means my list just lost another favorite. le sigh. o well.

blogosaur and i went to the party at his place, and did our first beer bongs. although i thought i was drowning in beer, i did it and it all went aok. well enough that we decided to flag down the buff bus, which was a success but not because of our frantic waving. moreso because somebody else wanted to get off there.

after riding around for a couple loops, we got off w/matt and he gave us a ride back to the house we started drinking at. we decided against taco bell, and for passing out. it was a good night. except when matt called at like 345am and i wasn't awake or asleep and i have no idea what i said or what i was talking about. so.. yeah. good times.

i've spent the last 24 hours either out or trying to upload pictures and umm i'm too frustrated right now. so fuck it. you get no pictures.

私について。。。

2005-08-26T10:31:00.000-06:00

みなさん、こんにちは。
私はコロラド大学の三年生。言語と日本語を勉強しています。中学の時から、日本語を勉強します。それだけど、よく漢字を読めません。私にとって、漢字の書くこともちょっと難しいです。

ひまなときでは、私はバースを運転します。それはアルバイトです。今週、毎日６時半でアルバイトします。９時半でおわります。それから、クラスへ行きます。私は毎晩、疲れ果てています。時間があるときで、サッカーとか料理とかビデオ・ゲームのすることが好きだ。

今、私の一番好きな物は新しい青いセーター。柔らかくて、着心地が良いです。

この事故紹介はちょっと上手じゃない。次回、より上手に書くでしょう。

preston

2005-08-25T18:56:00.000-06:00

stop calling me when i'm either passed out in a stoned stupor or in a stupid art class lecture.

2005-08-24T20:23:00.000-06:00

here's some fun stuff to look at--

cybersex prank
time waster
cybersex prank 2
credit card prank
cool posters
accent databank
speechist

enjoy

2005-08-24T20:20:00.000-06:00

i'd pay more for those panties than i would for that same freakin' pair of jeans every girl on campus is wearing with the same freakin' holes already in it.

not that the holes don't look very good where they are. or that i don't enjoy watching the ladies while i stoll. i'm jus sayin...

2005-08-23T19:02:00.000-06:00

i can't talk about school right now because it is entirely too stressful. so instead let's talk about random little encounters i've had today.

i got up at 645 so i could start pretripping a bus at 705. everything was fine and dandy. i checked the oil, thought it was low but apparently that low line doens't actually mean low. what that meant was 'just drive it, it'll be fine, it's not really low.' so that was that and i drove from 730-10.

i know i said i wouldn't talk about school, but i jus gotta mention this class. art class, the class i've been trying to take since 5th grade, joyous fundamentals of art class. the teacher made me regret the class from the moment she opened her mouth. but other than the way she carries herself, it could work out to be fun. met a girl, drew her picture. without looking at the paper. or lifting the pencil. blogosaur showed up right about this time, and hung out with us. that was way cool, made my day better.

i went home, planning to sleep a half hour between then and my math class, and about 10 minutes in, somebody knocks on my door. now this same shit happened to me yesterday, and here's how it went.

she tried to sell me magazines, supposedly for points, supposedly for a 10 000$ prize with which she wanted to go to college. so i tell her immediately i have no cash, and she's still compelled to show me how much i could save as if i were going to conjure up 60$ to pay her for 3 years of ebony. so she finally leaves after i find out the following things about her:
1. she's from michigan
2. she's 22
3. she's never been to college
4. she loves christian rock
5. she doesn't know what penthouse is.
6. she doesn't know who stephen hawking is.
7. she's socially inept and has entered this contest to conquer her fear of public speaking?

so this guy shows up and im expecting a repeat. he's apparently in a different contest, with a different point system. he has to get the highest number of points, and if he wins, he gets to be in a polo shoot in london. cool. so i tell him his people were here yesterday, and apparently the groups aren't related. huh. so he comes in to show me how much i can save and looks on my table and sees my latest acquirement, a waterpipe.

it leads to a conversation about pot and eventually smoking his stash with him. i was loving it when he left without even bothering to keep sellin me shit.

after another boring class, i was trying to figure out where to catch a bus going to the east campus, where my car was. i run into steve, who's driving this tiny electric golf cart thing. so we ride in it, in 35mph traffic, goin' 26 and he takes me to base. and takes a couple pictures of me w/the big buses.

now, it's 8pm and i'm thinking an early night would do wonders for me and my broken bank account.

yay target?

2005-08-21T22:02:00.000-06:00

so some mass marketing company and target decided it would be great to seriously get college students spending money. by offering a bus that went straight from campus to target, all day. and lucky me, i got to drive the bus. one of like 5 doing all these different routes.

at first, it was annoying. the staff lady on the bus asked the same trivia question every time, and it was stupid easy. but we had a lot of fun at the end of the day, asking some crazy questions, getting people to do crazy shit for target giftcards. this went on for eight hours, and i was exhausted. but no, not done yet. fueling the compressed natural gas bus takes forever. i didn't even wait for it to finish, i just wanted to go home. the reason it takes so long is that i have to wait for my tank's pressure to equalize w/the pump's. so the closer to full i get, the longer it takes because it's balancing out very very slowly. excruciatingly slow is what it was.

i start class tomorrow and i have no books because i have no money. but maybe now i'll get into the habit of figuring out which books i really need, then only buying those. i'm not prepared to spend more than 200 on books this semester.

i'm also gonna try to spare my sleeping schedule as much as possible until the partying really kicks in. which means i'm not staying up late tonight

kaerimashita

2005-08-21T10:24:00.000-06:00

i work in an hour. for eight hours. i picked up this shift from another driver who's been nothing but cool to me, so we'll see how it goes. i'm thinking i should get my fm transmitter working because even mega 95.7 won't work for 8 hours straight. my stomach is rumbly, i'm thinking i should do something about that.

the road trip was awesome, we had a blast up until we were 30 minutes outside of denver, when norma's mom told her the car was locked in the garage and the key was in the mountains with her. but even that kind of worked out. all in all, i was back in boulder the next afternoon, and went to the houseparty on 28/colorado. i actually had to walk home because the suprise series of drinks shawn made had more alcohol than you would believe. it started with pineapple suprise, really good, not too strong. from there, every mix was more and more alcohol because we couldn't taste it anymore. orange suprise was my favorite, then there was grape which was also tasty. the last one was black cherry suprise, which was apparently really strong, just nobody could taste it. i love when it goes like that.

i gotta go get mcd's before they stop serving breakfast.

2005-08-16T16:30:00.000-06:00

p.s. i'd post pics but the camera is in the car, half a block down the street. it's too hot.

road trip!

2005-08-16T15:59:00.000-06:00

i cant remember the last time i was here. but now, here is in omaha, nebraska. my family came through w/me and i wound up renting a car and me and norma freakin' did it. we left at 5am, and got to holyoke around 8, just in time to eat an amazing breakfast. my friend lives on a farm, so most of the food was from their farm. i've never tasted such amazing food. from there, we drove to omaha, stopping what seemed like 5 or 6 times to potty and such.

dad's house is full right now, so me and my homegirl are staying in the motor home parked in the driveway. my brother and his gf are here for another day. there's a guy who's related to my step mom, and a kid brother of this student from the ukraine too. also my stepsister and my step mom of course, although the sister has only been sited twice and never wants to socialize. it's freakin' annoying.

so i'm here until thursday, then it's off to scottsbluff to see my girl's gramma. i'm excited for more homecooked food. it only reminds me that im hungry as hell. we're going out to eat in an hour, so here's to my holding out til then.

i'll try to keep up w/posting, cuz i've been slacking so much lately. but whatever. i don't do this for anyone's entertainment but my own really. screw you all. and by that i mean blogosaur cuz nobody else reads this.

2005-08-04T18:13:00.000-06:00

preston and his guitar

2005-07-26T21:38:00.000-06:00

so hot

2005-07-25T21:06:00.000-06:00

things i can't find:

my camera
a reason to truly clean up enough to look for it
a good place to put a pie i bought
all those things of chapstick i buy
balls enough to tell dad i'm taking the van on a roadtrip w/o asking for permission
matches to all of my favorite socks

i'm waiting for my friend to show up so we can go see a movie i've never heard of, called the island. me and the guy in my class got together today with intentions of finishing the homework. we did everything but the homework as it turned out. watched some home movies, laughed, talked, tried to start a fire with magnesium scrapings and strolled for a bit.

the weather is beautiful. it's rainy and chilly and wet. i'm looking for any excuse to be outside wandering about, right now.

excuse #249

2005-07-22T00:06:00.000-06:00

it's too hot to even move. let alone update a blog w/mindless babble about stupid shit. really, i don't want anything to do w/socializing right now. just give me my half and leave me be. bah.

hoo boy

2005-07-18T00:02:00.000-06:00

so the kickback resulted in my not being sober for anextended period of time. irish car bombs rock my world. hung out til like 3am, when the jam sessions started and i basically passed the fuck out sitting in a chair, flopped over like a rag doll or something.

what i thought was a run to the flatirons theatre on the hill turned out to be a run to the flatirons mall theatre which included free tickets to see charlie and the chocolate factory. i've never had so much fun while on the clock. i don't know that it was as good as the original but i was crackin' up through it and umm.. i got paid for it so i can't complain at all.

after that, i went to denver and hung out w/this kid i went to hs with. the rest of the night involved illicit materials and trying to get the tv to work. it was all great fun, i was freakin' giddy until somehtin' like 3am. then i just passed out hard. until about 3pm. i'm still happy about that.

here's what i'm unhappy about. the way my mp3 player and the program i have to use for it won't talk to eachother. the player says it's connected but the program says it isn't. i don't freakin' get it. i really wish they would resolve their differences and let me add music to my player. sigh. still good times overall.

holy crap

2005-07-15T15:57:00.000-06:00

yesterday was quite possibly the best day ever.

first off, i switched IM addy w/this hottie in my class. it doesn't mean anything really but it's a huge step as far as my socialness goes. so there's that, i walk home , get ready for the anger management tour, which was billed as lil john and the east side boyz, 50 cent & G unit, Obie Trice and Eminem.

on the way, my friend and i hit up jamba juice. i have to say that i have never been less then impressed by the way i'm treated at any jamba juice i've ever been to. at this one, the cashier gave us a 10% discount on our smoothies. on top of that, they were calling out a drink and nobody was picking it up. so we got 3 smoothies for less than the price of two. fuck yea!

once we got to the pepsi center, the show started like 10minutes later. and it was a mindblwoing show from start to finish. lil john opened and his set was hard. we we're standing for the whole thing. about halfway through, he did "watcha gonna do?" and mixes into the remix, complete with pitbull. it was freakin' sweet. they went into "la gasolina" , which was hot and then "toma", also way hot.

the 50/G set also rocked. i enjoyed it a lot more than the last time i saw 50 live. better tracks, set, bass, everything. all around a badass set. same for the obie trice set. after he finished, we went and got onion rings and by the time we got back, eminem's set was about to start.

even though we wanted to go to the club, the fact that his set never seemed to have an end in sight had us all the more happy. he did all the huge hits, like one or two verses, then did most of his new tracks all the way through. he made major asses of mariah carey ( who he was apparently dating? i don't know..) and michael jackson with "puke" and "just lose it". i had so much fun. also, through the whole show, everyone around us was toking majorly. so i wasn't low at all all night.

when it ended, we had to go get her car then head back the way we came, out to tracks, the gay club formerly known as dream. newly remodeled w/tons of publicity, there were some serious hotties there. like i've seen a few before but there's a significant increase. ran into this girl kat, who went to my hs. then there's this girl in a corset , titties flying everywhere and i realize we went to the same elementary school. so i got her #, and the club closed and we all started driving over to norma's place.

on the way, we look over and see the shadey tour bus driving. so what do we do? we follow it. all the way to a hotel, where we park on the other end of the parking lot and contemplate our next move. leonard suggested going and talking to some guy who was on the phone and seeing who was on the bus. as it turns out, none of the artists were on the bus, only staff for the satellite radio station eminem has now,
. still freakin' awesome. they were way chill with us, and let us hang out on the bus. i had some kind of energy drink and then our friends who we're waiting for us at my friend's house called and we had to leave. it was pretty awesome still. im so happy about it.

back at norma's i couldn't decide whether i should drive home then or later. i finally decided i'd ponder this with a bottle of bacardi silver o. i wound up staying up, chillin' with leonard til somethng like 730am. i finally decided to drive home so i could sleep a couple hours before class today.

class today was in some kind of a time dilation that left me begging for it to be over. i hung out w/matt after class and he invited me to a kickback his friend is throwing. i'm excited because i didn't ask to go, and it's little things that get me all happy.

anyway, my bus to elitches is in 5 minutes and i gotta go. how long can this much fun last for? a day, because i just found out that the pay check i've been counting on isn't for another two weeks. this is me fucked as far as finances go. blargh i still had a rockin day there, score!

pix

2005-07-12T00:27:00.001-06:00

max and vincent
me and blogosaur in the first car at the top of the first hill on the twister.
max's newest and hottest tattoo.
me and blogosaur on the teacups
us on the thunder bolt

hot punk kid eating potato salad

pix

2005-07-12T00:27:00.000-06:00

there's beauty in breakdown

2005-07-11T23:46:00.000-06:00

i just got home from driving home the ostemy kids again, from elitches. i'm thinking it's only on this site that my laptop lags so damn badly. but we'll see how much i can get through w/o having to go back 5 seconds later. the weather has been so nice, i seem to enjoy living alone more and more because it allows me to not wear clothes.

hung out w/the asian the other day and found myself really baked on swag which is suprising but then not. i guess because i have the kind so much, i don't have a tolerance for swag. as it turns out, the asian can make some damn good food, and this i did not know. he made me an omelette that rocked and then sauteed mushrooms later. then he busts aqua teen season 3 and we watch one of my favorite episodes of all time. i was so happy. then he basically says, wanna get it on? and i'm all, [....] because of my utter shock at the statment. but it all worked out well. so well that we didn't sleep until something close to 6am.

i saw my homegirl's soccer game the next day and got to see a bunch of girls from my hs soccer team. it was very nostalgic except i wasn't playing and that made me depressed. i seriously want to get back into it right now. like i have an internal need for it and nothng else really sates it like a ball and a goal. -sigh-

i worked in the afternoon, then me, the asian and my former farmer friend went to my homegirl's birthday party. at first, it wasn't much but it's amazing what a couple cups of beer will do for ya. because i'm a lightweight and all, that's about all i need to be pretty damn happy about things. it was cool cuz the asian speaks french and there was a french black dude there and they were talking and i rarely get to be on that end of things. i'm usually the one speaking in japanese and blowing minds i guess. preston drove us home and i felt really good about the fact that i had planned in advance and gave him the keys early on. then i felt bad because he didn't get to drink... because he doens't drink beer and that's all there was. but that was beyond my control so i can't worry about it. the asian and i hung out again and had all kinds of crazy wild fun that i somehow wasn't expecting? let me tell you about how oblivious i can be to shit sometimes. so i slept at 145am. not so bad, compared to the day before.

today, after class, i worked all afternoon. i had an hour break in between two of the runs, so i finished the first one as fast as possible. i'm at the fueling station, literally 10minutes from having an extra 30 minutes to relax when i hear this huge crack. like a giant twig breaking. i look and see the light pole swaying back and forth and i'm all, i wonder if that's on purpose... so i finish up and start to drive and i look and this guy is flagging me down. there's a car that basically took the pole head on. the driver wasn't moving. AT ALL. the guy already called 911, but his english was sketchy so i talked to the lady and the firetruck was there a minute later. all of this is in the span of 5-10 minutes.

i stand there and look at the guy in the car, and his eyes are open. he twitches a bit still but i'm thinking... i don't think that's right. i give my stament to the cops and talk to other people who heard it. then the medics keep asking me about how long ago i heard it and they're making the weirdest looks when i keep saying 10 minutes ago. they told me that he was dead, but it wasn't recent. rigor mortis was already setting in, like he'd been dead an hour or two. it doesn't get much weirder than that, folks--i'm pretty much freaking out at this point and all i want to do is go home.

the way he looked is still burned in my mind. the way his head was at this unnatural angle, in between the headrest and the frame of the car. the way the front of the car was wrapped around this pole and how the pole was so close to breaking in half completely. and to think that he'd already been dead. wtf does that mean? how does a dead guy take a pole head on with another guy driving by who witneses the whole thing? and i'm supposed to sleep tonight. it was a cold reminder that i could be gone in a flash too. it made me want to drop out of school and go travel. live off of bus driving and just live to live. i'm sure i'll get over that, though. i love school way too much.

busy busy week

2005-07-09T17:14:00.000-06:00

i've been all over denver and boulder all of this week, it seems like.

i started school tuesday, i don't know how i feel about it yet, i just know i'm thankful about the part where it's only 4 weeks long. books were cheap, i was happy. i still haven't registered my bike, and this post is taking forever because for whever reason, my laptop lags reallyb ad and it takes a couple seconds for the text to show up on the page.

i went to my homegirl's party on wednesday, and everyone was trashed before i got there. my girl cheated on her gf w/some guy who was so trashed i couldn't get over it. so i bounced cuz i wasn't feeling it, it jwas just turning into so much drama i didn't want. so i called this kid i've known since 7th grade, who i have a rich history with, and swung by his place. .. and spent the night. i had that much fun, yaal., that's right. so much that after class, i went down to chill w/him again the next night. didn't spend that night, i didn't wanna be up til 4am again. i'll be seeing more of him these days i'm sure.

friday, blogosaur and i went to elitches around 7 and closed the park. it freaking rocked. we got to ride the twister something like 5 times straight. as in, we didn't leave the ride platform until they shut down the ride. we're supposed to go again today, but i don't know what's going on. i await a phonecall from her and then we'll see what's up.

i worked this morning, drove all the way out to dia and picked up ostemy kids. what does that mean? i'll tell you because i just found out yesterday. ostemy is any type of intestional or urinary issues, usually resulting in the person carrying around a wastepack for their uhh waste. crazy shit but apparently all these younguns convene at cu w/their wastepacks and i got to pick them up. fun times. the cd deck would only play random tracks, refused to go in order. that was funny. but not as much as sarah at elitches when she was screaming so much her voice dropped pitch. that had me laughing unitl i cried. this is all in the middle of the ride, i jus lost it.

anyway, pix will go up after this. enjoy. as if anyone reads this besides blogosaur. we're our own best fans, huh

i don't get it

2005-07-04T11:27:00.000-06:00

i was hanging out w/one of my closest friends yesterday, and i realized that she keeps getting hotter and hotter. i didn't even think that was possible. but as i caught myself over and over again watching her ass and wishing i were her gf, i also noticed that her gf was cuter than i remembered. we talked about all things sex related while i was over, as that is our tradition, and i even asked her to do something for me i've never asked anyone else. but that's another story.

back on track though, an overwhelming majority of my friends are way attractive to me. i dont think that's why we're friends, it's just this nice benifit that works out for me. all my guy friends are way hot and i'd definitely get w/them (again, for some of them lol), and my coolest girl friends are the same. give me the opportunity and i'd definitely take it. they say great people don't take opportunities, they make them. but damnit, i can never come up w/a good reason to make out w/somebody. so i'm stuck here looking at my pictures and sorting through memories and wondering what, if anything, i could do about all of this. should i just enjoy the fact that my best friends are hotties? it'll do for now

on a separate note -- blogosaur got a season pass! now we can go wreak havoc together all the freakin' time. i'm so excited about that, i can't get over it.

summer school starts in one day. i don't know how i feel about that. black holes are saweeet! i'm having dinner w/my family today. and i guess blogosaur is coming, which is cool cuz they hardly ever let new people come in the house. it's funny to me, but everyone else thinks it's cuz they're nutso. go figure~

anyway, i finally got drug back onto myspace, so find me here.

2005-06-11T20:57:00.000-06:00

all in all it's been a good 24 hours. yesterday, i hung out w/preston and nikki, ate noodles&co, rented a bunch of stand up comedy and stayed up all night w/preston. in the middle of our laughathon, we went cruising around boulder. this was something like 10pm. wound up at barnes&nobles, got another book by chuck palahniuk, called choke. its really interesting. after the bookstore, we went to fascinations and it wasn't impressive. so we returned to the comedy and eventually fell asleep.

i went to denver today; i just got the second dvd of my sealab 2021 set back from my friend. she's had it so long i really can't remember... which means anywhere from last summer to last week. i hung out w/my x and that's as far as it went (yay). one of my best friends is supposed to come over tonight. there's a party that my homie told me about, hopefully it'll be fun--i like irish jigs. falling asleep in my comfy recliner... this doesn't get much better w/o illicit materials.

2005-06-10T01:26:00.000-06:00

mayuko, mal and me

2005-06-10T01:25:00.001-06:00

kawaii deshou

2005-06-10T01:25:00.000-06:00

ivy

i have returned

2005-06-06T07:14:00.000-06:00

its 715am. ive been up since 3am. i blame jet lag and food poisoning for that. i got it from wendys. not any of the hole in the wall ramen shops or anything. freakin' wendys. wtf is that. im hungry, i think, i might go have some dennys or mcd's or something. i dont know. maybe i'm tired? i hate this. i was running a fever for most of my flight back to america. that blew balls. hard. but all in all, i had a blast

2005-05-30T23:31:00.000-06:00

japan is fun. i have no money left hahaha. sarah you should pick me up at the airport, if youre reading this. i get on on the evening of june 5. i think its around 7ish, ill call you? the funny thing is i will have no idea as to whether or not you even got this until we happen upon another hotspot... so... i love rtd i guess.

hope my apt hasnt burned down by the time i get back....

annoyances

2005-05-24T18:43:00.000-06:00

here's a recent list of things that annoy me like hell
1. exboyfriend(its singular on purpose)
2. inability to be honest, as a personality flaw
3. lack of respect for people
4. horrible music
5. girls
6. boys
7. dogs
8. fooseball
9. everything

楽しかったとき

2005-05-18T19:50:00.000-06:00

sweet

2005-05-17T11:17:00.000-06:00

i got my cdl license yesterday. i still cant believe i passed. i had to parallel park a bus--can't see the real world application in that except for using your mirrors a lot. today, i go and train on how to drive all the other buses that are cab-forward(imagine the bus is gold and black though)y, meaning your wheels are behind you. imagine driving but you turn when it looks like you are already running over the curb. crazy shit yo. i finally got net in my place, thanks to the guys below me. the same guys who play sheisty music that vibrates through my floor. free net makes it quasi-tolerable.

odyssey of the mind's world final is coming to boulder on thursday. from that day til next wednesday, i'll have something like 50 hours of driving to do. serious cash for my vacation, assuming i get paid in a decent fashion.

anyway, i work in an hour, and i want to nap.

the title is securely mounted with no cracks or leaks

2005-05-11T18:55:00.000-06:00

so i got the job as a bus driver. i've spent 8 hours a day, getting all up in the engine, learning every single piece of equipment on the bus, how to check it and how to know if it is fubered. securely mounted is a key phrase. i use it at least 50 times while doing a pre-trip of the bus, which is when i check every single nut and bolt and anything possible, before i leave. the management expects me and the other chick to pick all this up and be able to drive 6 different types of buses by next tuesday. that includes the long bendy one i always think is going to hit something. by the time my cdl permit gets here by mail, i wil have tested for the actual license. it's all happening so fast!

i don't have internet in my apartment, but that should be up by next week, too. this is the first time i haven't been lazy to go to campus. in fact, this is the first time i've been on campus outside of a gold bus since my last final. it's nice to not have a class to be at.

i'll get back into the swing of bloggin' after they give me dsl. funny story: getting highspeed dsl is cheaper than getting lowspeed and a phone line, because they won't give you lowspeed without a phone line. somehow this is logic,... but then again it is qwest soooo i can't say too much.

the ebb and wane of stress in my life

2005-05-04T19:43:00.000-06:00

3 finals down, one left
took my ua, found out i don't find out the results for a couple days
moved pretty much everything out, still have a leering bag of shoes (that i never wear)
i've walked to my apt and back about 5x already today and i've got a few more trips to go
what do i do w/dried roses from 9 months ago, from a boy i broke up w/?
party tomorrow night, i want to find myself gone in every aspect, but if i don't pass the ua, i'd essentially fuck chances of passing it again...

i need more grape soda, stat!