turkey!

i'm in nebraska. it looked so nice outside but really, it's like 30 degrees here. and that stupid humid cold. somehow i forgot that nebraska was like this. but it's ok, i'm here with my family and i'm happy. we ate turkey and cranberry sauce and stuffing and potatoes and fried rice and tempura shrimp. all the prototypical foods plus some other goodnesses. man it's about that time for me to lay up like a beached whale, unbutton my jeans and pass out. to me, this is what thanksgiving is all about. how was everyone else's?

oh yeah and i hit a pole with my bus on wednesday. worst part? now everybody makes fun of me. nobody really cares that it cost $200 to wench me off of the pole and all. lol

i almost feel like i should get involved w/this. but then i figure nobody would acknowledge that i walked out of anything. i also get the feeling that this might go something like the shoulder 2 shoulder lines went last year. and it didn't accomplish/do a whole lot for our racism issues at CU, which definitely do exist, obviously.

on a side note, i got flannel pants and resevoir dogs and my baby called me. harry potter was fun and i love sleep.

in my email was:
Please Forward Widely!!

Hello,

As many of you know one of our Tri-Execs, Mo, was the target of a
terrible
racist attack. This is just one incident in a series of racist,
sexist, and
heterosexist incidents to take place on campus. Therefore join us
on TUESDAY
NOV. 22nd at 1:00pm as we take a stand and walkout of our classes
and march to
the regents. It is time to show the administration on this campus
we are fed
up and we are taking action. Please tell everyone you know about
the walkout
this coming tuesday at 1:00pm.

In addition, many are taking white tshirts and in sharpie
markers, or by
whatever means possbile writing "WE SUPPORT MO". On the back some
are
writing "STOP HATE AT CU" If you have a tshirt and a sharpie
lying around
please take the time to show your support for MO.

Thank you,
Sincerely,
The Women's Studies Student Advisory Board

i almost feel like i should get involved w/this. but then i figure nobody would acknowledge that i walked out of anything. i also get the feeling that this might go something like the shoulder 2 shoulder lines went last year. and it didn't accomplish/do a whole lot for our racism issues at CU, which definitely do exist, obviously.

on a side note, i got flannel pants and resevoir dogs and my baby called me. harry potter was fun and i love sleep.

in my email was:
Please Forward Widely!!

Hello,

As many of you know one of our Tri-Execs, Mo, was the target of a
terrible
racist attack. This is just one incident in a series of racist,
sexist, and
heterosexist incidents to take place on campus. Therefore join us
on TUESDAY
NOV. 22nd at 1:00pm as we take a stand and walkout of our classes
and march to
the regents. It is time to show the administration on this campus
we are fed
up and we are taking action. Please tell everyone you know about
the walkout
this coming tuesday at 1:00pm.

In addition, many are taking white tshirts and in sharpie
markers, or by
whatever means possbile writing "WE SUPPORT MO". On the back some
are
writing "STOP HATE AT CU" If you have a tshirt and a sharpie
lying around
please take the time to show your support for MO.

Thank you,
Sincerely,
The Women's Studies Student Advisory Board

man do i enjoy blowing paint across boxes. and tomorrow, for the first time, i am eligible to donate blood and i will. i'm way excited about that. and about a new cd ben hooked me up w/. mix cds make driving so much more fun for me, since it's not like i'm paying attention to driving anyway. i'm on my fifth bowl of cereal for the night. i guess my baby's gone for a week longer than i thought, which sucks but ok. i might be going to omaha for turkey? cool. and i have three pairs of toasty houseshoes in one small apt--amazing. this winter won't be so bad

now, as i come dangerously close to promising myself to one person for life ever after, i've been thinking about all of my past adventures, recapping the lessons learned and making sure that this isn't all a giant mistake. (not that i think it is, but it's good to be double plus sure). so let's do this chronologically

1998 somewhere in here, this kid who lives down the street and i hit it off and date for months. i don't remember a whole lot other than this. his name is max

1999 somewhere in here, we break up amidst all kinds of crazy drama w/our families. oh the joys of being 15 and crazy emotional

2000 a sophomore in hs, i meet this freshman named dzuy and develop a debilitating crush on him

2001 spring semester - i take this crazy math class with 5 other people, including jarrad, chelsea and this guy anthony

2001 april 20th - dzuy asks me out and so begins my longest relationship to date, ~1.5 years

2002 fall of my senior year, when school starts, i have the sinking feeling that whatever was there was gone w/dzuy, we break up before thanksgiving // lesson = don't try to save something when you know in your heart that it's gone

2002-3 over break, i hang out with max a lot, pure rebound

2003 spring - i meet this guy on msn named keith. although the original plan is fwb, we wind up dating, knowing damn well he's going to move to texas, not go to college in colorado

2003 fall - i irrationally decide to go visit, and like everyone else predicted, it wasn't worth it. i officially end it in november // lesson = i can't wait forever for someone to decide to do anythin with their life

2004 spring - i meet all kinds of crazy people on crazy websites and off and date this guy(was it even dating? i don't know) through the summer

2004 summer - i meet this guy, oleg, at king soopers. knowing damn well it's only a summer thing, i let myself be talked into being his girlfriend.

2004 winter - i am absolutely miserable but i've fallen into habit. it's easier for me to just roll with it than to break up with him and be done with it

2005 spring - at shawn's bday party, i keep him up all night (pun intended) and we have a total blast. it remains one of the best nights of my life, although that girl was unhappy the next day.

2005 april 1st - i break up w/oleg and he continues to show up in my life at inopportune times, completely oblivious to the things that had me miserable for so long, still wanting me to explain to him why it would never work // lesson = don't date douchebags

2005 summer - i enjoy my freedom to the max, until july when i get tired of it and start watching for someone who i could stay w/and be happy. i develop a crush on this guy and wait for my chance to make it happen. in the meantime, max, shawn and jeremy are my most fun friends and it's a grand ol' time.

2005 august - i get a message on myspace from a guy named Anthony who apparently went to high school w/me? i barely remember him from the picture but we start talking online since he's in the navy in connecticut. we make plans to hang out when he's back in colorado.

2005 september - we finally hang out and i find myself super comfortable super quick. he even
laid in the grass with me! how cool is that? // i go to his birthday party and later in the evening he sees a shooting star and wishes for a kiss. everything escalates from this point, i don't want to leave his side and i don't want him to leave the state. when he does, i accept that it would have been great but the timing was just wrong, so i prepare to start to move on.

september 25th while talking on the phone, he suggests we get married so we can both live in hawai'i. it takes me an hour to come down from my high and realize how serious he is

october 18th he flies me out to hawai'i for a few days

october 2oth he proposes to me while we're watching a sunset and standing in the ocean

january 10th - we make this official?

sometimes i worry that i'm letting all this happen too fast. but then i try to explain exactly how amazing everything is and feels to me. how there are things about him that i never thought i would find in a guy who was also sexy, smart and motivated in life, oh and attracted to me. it's all completely unreal to me. why say no when i have someone who only makes me want to say yes to everything he says?

back for round two

thursday night i stayed up entirely too late

friday i was up from 830am to 2am, at which point i decided to go hang out w/of my two closest friends from freshman year(who aren't in japan. i miss you preston!) i crashed around 420am.

saturday i worked from 10am to 1230. i ran errands and went back to work at 430, getting off around 830(i was scheduled to be off at 730). earlier i had said i'd take another driver's late night shift if absolutely nobody else did, figuring i could sleep between shifts. i got home at 9 and went back to work at 930, working until 410am. matt and i kicked it until 615am.

sunday, anthony called me at 1130am and i was up all day from there. i moved in a new couch and with lots of help from ben and sarah, had a brand new arrangement in 2 hours. i was up until 1130 when i hung up too quick w/anthony because i was too high to deal with him being too drunk. does that make sense?

the point is, i am exhausted. and im up from now until 1230 at the latest. or 1030 at the soonest

3 more weeks! let the countdown begin

i bought this punch card for an auto place. like all kinds of free/discounted services, including four free oil changes. the card says 'free' on it. but apparently, what they meant was i pay for getting rid of the oil. which is like $15 dollars. for 20 i could just get it done somewhere else. somewhere where they at least offer coffee. but i accept it, call and make an apt for today. 9am. that means i dont get to sleep in late.

i spend 15minutes searching for the place, going from 30/valmont to foothills to baseline and back up 30 before calling them from another auto place on the corner of 30/valmont. and after all this shit i get in there, and she's like... oh you had a 9am appt too? because she forgot to write it down or some shit. i would've had to wait 20 minutes and not go to japanese but then oh yes then they could get me right in. fuck that.

just because i'm failing classes doesn't mean i shouldn't at least show up.